Sunday Gratitude

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Today I am grateful to remember the need for other people.  I have felt so drained with every interaction with other people over the last two weeks, I felt myself isolating from everyone.  I didn’t have the energy to deal with one more person needing something from me.  Even if it was for something good for myself or energy needed to go into my business, I simply didn’t have it.  I knew yesterday was going to be a high energy demand day because we had two events, neither of which I wanted to go to.  Alas, we went anyway.  To my absolute surprise and delight, both events turned out great.  We didn’t stay longer than we wanted to, we had great conversation, we had fun, and while it was still tiring, it was also replenishing.  Sometimes you just need to let it go and see what happens. 

Today I am grateful for signs.  Part of why everything felt so draining this week is because I allowed myself to sink into a bit of a funk with my faith.   Things aren’t going the greatest at my 9-5 but I’m conflicted because even though I’m trying to move away from it, I still need it.  We haven’t had much progress with our business because we’ve been sick—again—so we haven’t been able to put much into it.   I’ve been getting a ton of outward signs to be grateful and have faith that everything is well and on track and that some of my work is about to pay off and things are manifesting etc, etc. But the outward results aren’t happening at all so I was getting depressed.  But today I received a reminder that there is plenty of time for things to manifest and that things meant for me can’t be missed.  It specifically said to let go of my anxiety—and I’m about to share our anxiety series that I mentioned yesterday.  So keep the faith and keep going.

Today I am grateful for cleansing.  We need to do a deep clean of the house as we are entering fall and we’ve been sick for the last several weeks.  Thank you Petrie dish of young children. Regardless, I am grateful we have the means to create a safe, clean space for all of us and to help each other be a bit healthier.  It’s amazing how good it feels to clear and clean space.  Sometimes we just have to get in the weeds to make it feel good again and taking care of our space is a sacred connection to source as well as shows appreciation for what we have.

Today I am grateful for reminders of who I am.  It’s so important to remember that we can’t grow who we are if we are trying to be who someone else tells us to be.  I work with an incredible team and there are moments it feels like the only way to move forward is to be exactly who they think I am.  There is an expectation of following the system and repeating known patterns of success.  But as I dive deeper into it, I know this is a challenge for me to not look for approval from others.  It’s about finding what works for me.  Yes, there are moments I know I need to be pushed—and that was something I was never comfortable with.  But more importantly, I know I need to stand in who I am and head toward my personal direction.  I’ve learned (even though it’s hard to do it) that it’s worth letting everyone down if it means becoming who you are.

Today I am grateful for acceptance.  I have a tendency to set really high expectations of myself and others.  Not that they are unrealistic, but they definitely take work.  But I’m learning where that may be slightly destructive or sabotaging to my success.  It’s great to have a big goal, but things come with that.  There will be obstacles.  There will be detours.  Things will turn out differently than you’d like.  The acceptance is tricky because it can feel like failure if it isn’t how you envisioned it.  The reality is moving any step in the direction of your/my dreams is key.  Magic happens in alignment.  It happens in flow.  It happens when we let go of the reins and learn to go with it.  Acceptance isn’t lying down in defeat or submission.  It’s acknowledging what is and learning to incorporate and adapt to what the circumstance IS over what you think it should be.  I know I can’t let my expectations destroy the joy of where I’m at because it’s better than where I was. 

Today I am grateful for fun.  We had a busy weekend.  It was fun but it was really full.  Sometimes I don’t mind it, but there are times it takes a lot of my energy to even wrap my head around going.  I mentioned we had a few events yesterday and that we were going through the house cleaning today—and I was exhausted.  I really wanted to get everything done.  But we needed a break at a certain point plus I realized there were a few things I had forgotten at the store.  So we got together and went to the store.  After, my husband asked if we were hungry so we had a surprise stop to get some food.  The place was having a car show so that was fun to see on the way in.  We had a really nice meal—nothing fancy, but we were engaged and having fun together.  Sometimes you need to slow down to go faster.  We all felt more energized after.  No, not everything got done.  But we certainly felt better.

Wishing everyone a wonderful week ahead.

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