Today I am grateful for play and rest. I had this revelation the other day that I’ve been pushing too hard at too many things with little focus so I really haven’t yielded any results anywhere. My body and mind are telling me it’s time to slow down and really figure out what’s going on. I spent this weekend playing and relaxing and enjoying my time with my family. I learned another new game, we laughed, we cuddled, we created. All of that connection came from time together and from listening to what my soul needed. Time moves so quickly, it doesn’t pay to wait for things to come another day—enjoy now because nothing is promised. Find joy, find love both for and in our lives. It makes all the difference as the answers become clear.
Today I am grateful for trying things a new way. Every relationship struggles and the longer you are together, a little more maintenance is required. I had a long conversation with my husband the other day about being tired of repeating the same day over and over again. I expressed I was bored and I wanted to do something creative. The very next day, some old patterns were brought to light and I realized that some things had been hidden from me. Things I thought we were on top of turned out to be a bit further behind. I fully own and admit that I would normally FREAK out and yell and scream and panic. But this time I made a conscious effort to try it a new way. If we want different results, we need to do different things. I’m not sure how it’s going to turn out in the end but I have a feeling the result is going to be different this time around. And I know for certain I felt better in the moment. Less stressed.
Today I am grateful for seeing my life come together. It is far from perfect but I can see the pieces of what I planted years ago coming together. Things I dreamed of, spaces I envisioned having are coming together and it feels amazing. Seeing things unfold feels slightly surreal and I still have a ton of anxiety about the future, but I’m working through some new steps and trying to be present. I’m trying to do the work to find who I am at the core so I can feel more comfortable in my skin. The closer I get to who I am, the more I see it reflected outside of me as well. It isn’t a comfortable place, like at all. But seeing the glimmers of things to come, having hope and faith, all makes it more manageable.
Today I am grateful for my health and the opportunities to take care of myself. This one never gets old for me and quite frankly I feel like I should share it every week. Firstly I am grateful for acquiring an extremely reasonably priced set of weights to challenge my body and care for it in new ways. Secondly, there is a lot to be grateful for with the body itself. It never ceases to amaze me how wonderful the body is. Regardless of what it endures, it tries its best to protect itself and come back stronger. I am grateful to breathe, to feel my heart beating, to know that my organs are functioning. I love what my body can do and I love learning to feel more at home in my skin. When it comes to my health, I am so grateful that overall I am very healthy. I love the practices of nourishing my body and making sure I feel well. I love listening to my body and listening is KEY. The body keeps the score indeed and the answers we need lie within it. I am grateful to hear those answers.
Today I am grateful for the little things that make me happy and leaning toward joy. I adore hearing my son laugh. I love seeing my husband smile. I love my entire family and all the people and fuzzy creatures in it. I love my books and my writing. I love my office and the work I do in here—especially the way the light flows in this beautiful space. I love my little home gym and what I can do with my body. I love our entertainment space and our family space and my bathroom. I love helping people find their way. I love instilling belief in people even when they don’t believe in themselves. I love finding purpose and helping others find their purpose. I love to daydream. I love to create. I love figuring it out. I love having fun and playing games and singing and dancing and moving my body. I love communicating and bringing people together. I love setting a mood and a theme. I love getting more comfortable with the creative, divine flow in me. There is so much more. Taking the time to find what I love has changed me in that I see there is always something beautiful happening. Joy is an amazing indicator of where we should go. Trust that instinct every time.
Wishing everyone a wonderful week ahead.