Today I’m grateful for truth. Not everything is as it seems but the truth is always the way to go. I’ve been dealing with an uncomfortable situation for a while now involving a few friends of mine. Something has been off and I couldn’t put my finger on it. It felt like there was always more to the story. I’ve recently been let in on some additional facts in the situation and, as the light makes its way through, more makes sense. While the truth isn’t always pleasant, it’s always better to know than to not know. I’m grateful to know.
Today I’m grateful for fun. We all need to let loose and enjoy. I’ve spent some time celebrating friends over the past few days. We’ve had a significant amount of birthdays in the last week. We spent time together appreciating what we have, reliving beautiful memories and making new ones. It’s wonderful to recognize and appreciate the people we have in our lives. I love letting them know I’m glad they are with me, that they are in my life. It’s a wonderful feeling to be supported and to offer that support in return, to have hour long phone calls where you just GET each other. I’m grateful for my people.
Today I’m grateful for my own pace. I tend to live my life like I’m juggling spinning plates. I haven’t known any different, that’s always how I’ve operated. It’s always been about go, go, go, and get things done, mark another thing off the list. Recently, I’ve come to realize that I can’t keep up with the life I’ve been living. This isn’t the pace I want to keep, and, quite frankly, it’s not what I want to do. I’m tired of trying to find time for the things I want to do. I’m tired of being tired. So, as uncomfortable as it is to put things down that I normally do, for my own sanity and health, I know I have to. Today was about feeling my way through the day. No, it wasn’t how I normally do things, but I was able to do what I needed to do. We have to listen to our bodies, our minds, and our souls. They know when we need a break.
Today I’m grateful for connection with myself. Continuing on my own pace, I needed to find a way to hear what I need. I don’t listen as well as I could. I’m great at hearing other people and recognizing what they need, but when it comes to myself, it’s a work in progress. Today I took some time to just listen to my body. I’ve known for the last few weeks that I needed to slow down, to take a break, and to focus on other things. I haven’t managed to do as much of that as I needed to and my body nearly broke down. So for today, I’m glad to hear what my body needed, even if it was laying on the couch for a few minutes.
Today I’m grateful for connection with my husband. Relationships are work. They require time, attention, focus, devotion, and willingness to work toward something together. It’s an odd thing to work on boundaries and connection at the same time but it’s totally necessary. My husband knows I’ve been struggling lately and he doesn’t do well with emotional stress. But he did his damndest to hear me out and to see things that were happening from my point of view. He tried to talk me down, he helped me with pressure points on my body, he heard what my needs were. It’s amazing that so much of connection, the challenges we face with communication can be resolved with open ears and an open heart. That is the key to connection, and it paid in dividends today.
Today I’m grateful for peace. I’m looking forward to some time off in a few weeks. I can’t change what’s happening now or anything that happens until I’m off so I’m learning to allow. This is my greatest challenge: taking my hands off the wheel and allowing, trusting that everything is alright. But I truly have no choice. I don’t want to continue to drive myself crazy, fearing the future, complaining about things I can’t control in the present. I want to clear my mind enough so I can make better decisions and work toward the future I envision. The only way to do that is to invite peace in and the clarity that comes with it. Clarity makes the options stand out and it makes the choice easier. So, for sanity, for love, for a healthier future, I choose peace.
Wishing everyone a wonderful week ahead!