Today I am grateful for the expression of self. Sometimes you don’t know how much you nee to share pieces of who we are with those around us. I spent so much time thinking I would be rejected by people that I rarely gave the chance to let them see the real me. A little over a week ago, I was holding an event for my side business and literally no one showed up. Even the people who said they were coming. NO ONE. At first I played it cool because I know that I can’t force people to do something. But then it started hurting because my husband or myself have helped every one of them at some point and they couldn’t be there to support us. But then a conversation at work changed everything. People you least expect will support you when those who have known you the longest wont. More to come on that one.
Today I am grateful for time with my son in nature. My husband had to work yesterday so my son and I went to the trails a few miles from our house. The last time we were there my son was about 3 so I didn’t think he would remember much and he told me he didn’t when we first got there. As we were ending our little walk, he asked me if I remember the last time we were there how he fell on his butt and I told him I did—kids can surprise us. Regardless, the weather was perfect, the hike got us moving, and the views were spectacular. We went a different route than we had the last time so we got to see things from a higher vantage point. The colors are just giving hints of coming through, and the wildflowers and grasses are absolutely gorgeous. My heart melted when my son said he really had a good time. I love doing things like that with him and I’m grateful those experiences will stick with him.
Today I am grateful for life. I couldn’t think of a better way to describe it. I’m grateful for all the pieces of who I am falling together. I struggle every day with the timeline because I wish I hadn’t been so stubborn and wasted time forcing things to be a certain way, but I AM grateful that it’s happening. I guess I never really listened to people when they describe how it feels to fully express yourself and to be content with where you’re at. I mean, I think I imagined it a certain way where people saw the sense in what I was doing and kind of steered clear. The reality is it’s a flow and it doesn’t matter if it makes sense to other people, it has to make sense to me.
Today I am grateful to clear out the noise. Over the last few weeks I’ve literally struggled with my hearing as a result of a nasty cold turned sinus infection. It has shown me how much I let distraction get in the way of what I’m really trying to accomplish. I’m not terribly surprised because I am an avid observer and recorder. I like to take things in and I like to be entertained/taken away to a different world. I especially love thinking of the possibilities. But what I’ve learned is that progress really does require focus. I have several major things going on in my life at once and they’ve been going for a few years now. None of them has particularly taken off—and this experience with my hearing has shown me it’s probably related to the focus. In order to progress, I need to focus entirely on one thing or at least be more strategic with my time. I am grateful for that reminder.
Today I am grateful for intuition. I knew something was off with my husband the second he woke up this morning. He just wasn’t acting like himself and he was a bit extra cranky. I let him be and moved on with the things I needed to do today. Later in the early afternoon, he told me what was going on. I wasn’t entirely shocked. Yes, I was disappointed by it because it’s the repetition of a pattern that has long been occurring and has long been in need of breaking. Either way, I am grateful that I trusted my gut and knew something was wrong in spite of him telling me it wasn’t. never let anyone tell you that you don’t know something when you do.
Today I am grateful for things that are thriving in my life. We have made significant steps forward in many of the projects we have going on. They would entirely benefit from more direct focus and more intention, but that is the next step we can take. I am grateful that we are moving forward and things are showing promise. Quite frankly that’s why we got into the business we did—so that we can help others and ourselves move forward. Yes, we had a hiccup today, but I know that the bigger things are coming and the work we have put in on developing ourselves and the work we do is paying off now and will continue to pay off in the future. That is something to be grateful for—and something to look forward to.
Wishing everyone a wonderful week ahead.