Today I am grateful for projects. We’ve been doing small things around the house and I think I’m more grateful for nesting than I am for the projects themselves. I mean, I absolutely need something to keep me moving and I love doing things that are productive. But there is also this underlying warmth from building something we both want and bringing a vision to life. That part is awesome as well: the working together. My husband and I definitely have things we don’t see eye to eye on, but I will say any time we take on a project around the house together, we are 100% in sync. There’s an ease to tasks that drive most people crazy. Then again, who knows. Maybe we were both decorators in a previous life 😊.
Today I am grateful for trust. I live a lot of my life waiting for the other shoe to drop. I won’t buy certain things because I’m afraid I need to keep a nest egg, or I deprive myself of what I really need because I think I can make things do. Lately, I’ve been looking at it differently. I’m not talking about being reckless and making bad choices. I’m talking about putting it in perspective. Is that $15 book really going to impact my bottom line? Not if I do it responsibly. Is my kid messing up the house really a bad thing? No, he’s learning to express himself. Yeah, we have to work on the listening and cleaning thing, but him getting to be himself is key. I can trust that things happen as they are meant to–I can follow what I am meant to, even if that means randomly buying wood canvases so I can paint…something. I am safe to indulge every now and then. It is safe to allow.
Today I am grateful for life. There have been a tons of ups and downs the last few years. I’ve dealt with mental health issues for as long as I can remember. But these last few months have been revelatory for me. Saying yes when I want to, saying no when I want to, learning the things that make me tick—that is life. All of the things I’ve preached about over the last few years finally getting put into practice. Well, not that I didn’t practice before, but it was more like putting my toes in the pool. Now I want to feel the entirety of life as I dive in and feel it surround me. There is so much to be grateful for. It’s not really living if we don’t embrace the chances we have while we have them. So I’m grateful to dive in.
Today I am grateful for my family. Things have bene tense between my husband and son this past weekend. They are both stubborn and my son especially takes after my husband in that department. My husband struggles with it because he wants our son to do what he is told. Well, five year olds are learning all they can about who they are and my son has a healthy dose of me in there as well—he wants to express himself and he feels like he can handle it. I am grateful for the love we all share in spite of our differences. We spent some time baking this weekend, learning how to make healthy treats together. It’s an experience…and a lesson in letting go for me as well. I’m grateful to have the lesson.
Today I am grateful for growth. Literally and figuratively. I’ve been putting in a ton of personal development work in order to make decisions about who I am and where I want to be—and so I can share that process with all of you. It’s so helpful to know we aren’t alone and I want to always share how messy it is. Growth is painful but it is progress. There is nothing more painful that holding yourself back and missing those opportunities. So I’ve invested the time in myself and in my home. I’m taking the time to plant seeds and watch that growth as well—and those seeds are blooming! It’s a privilege to experience that and my time needs to be focused on that now. I’m not throwing that away.
Today I am grateful for learning. Through all of the growth, I mentioned I’m dealing with literal growth as well. Those seeds I mentioned are in the form of my garden and they are absolutely blooming. That is a form of self-care unlike anything I’ve done before. I also never expected it to be so much like raising a child—waiting for them to do what they need to do to grow while figuring out what these silent creatures need to survive. Then I went ahead and looked up how to germinate my own cherry seeds. It is fascinating! This is a new facet of my life and I love it. There is a slowing down and a learning what really matters working with the Earth and seeing the results. It is life.
Wishing everyone a wonderful week ahead!