I really don’t understand the purpose of the impermanence of life.  Why we can experience near unlimited power and magic only to have it end—or only to realize our power at the end.  To have what we built carry on, but not be here to experience it.  I’ll admit that’s partly me being selfish—I want to enjoy the rewards of my efforts AND help others.  I mean, I believe in leaving the world better for the next person, I do, but it is so bittersweet to live knowing it will end.  Especially knowing we have access to such energy.  I wanted to live forever, to learn, to see, to witness it all.  Perhaps my job, my legacy, my way to live forever is to leave word of what was.  I think that our communication, the words we leave behind, these are the things that make us immortal.  We still read the words of men from the beginning of time, and while that may not speak to the entirety of who they are, they have endured for millennia in some cases.

There is to much to experience in this world and I felt like I needed to live forever to experience all I wanted to.  I was raised to believe we had to earn fun.  That we had to prove our worth when it came to deciding to have fun.  I saved fun for the weekends, for the parties, the holidays, the moments we got together.  The rest of the time needed to be some sort of work or resting to repeat the work.  Mindlessly watching TV until the time came to get to school or work again.  I had drive and desire to do other projects but those were things I was taught to keep on the back burner until all the things that “needed” to be done were done.  But the point of life isn’t to put it on hold until we’ve somehow proven to others that we are worthy of a day off, of a vacation, of just saying we’ve had enough and taking the reins back so we can steer ourselves where we want to be. 

So while life is short, it feels a whole lot shorter if we spend all this time doing what we are told, hoping we will be afforded a few minutes of peace and joy along the way. The key to life is to realize we never needed permission to live how we wanted to.  I may not have a reason for the impermanence of life, I may not have a way to physically be here forever, a way to fit in all the things on that list of what I want to do: none of that is a reason to not go for it, to try and find a way to do all that I want to do.  To understand that this life isn’t over at a certain age, that it doesn’t have to look a certain way because of a number.  That we live as long and as fully as we want to in regards to how much life we fit in a day—not living the same day over and over again hoping to do something else.  We experience life now and that is a legacy we leave: learning how to live life in the moment, experiencing all the joys life has to offer.  We use our power now, we create our life now—because that creation can endure forever even if we aren’t here.  That is how we live forever.