There is a lot on my mind tonight so I’m keeping this very short. You never know the cards life is going to deal you, the curve balls, or even the moments you expect that come at a different time you were expecting. I am grateful for my life in spite of the facets I am trying to change. The change isn’t coming from a negative place—it’s coming from a place where I want more for myself and my family. I am grateful to do the work to get to the next level. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t still exhausted and saddened by the challenges—I’m human—or if I said it all makes sense—because I still can’t make heads or tails of the last few weeks. But I am grateful to have the opportunity to figure it out. A new season is coming, a new awakening and there are people, things, experiences, behaviors, patterns, and even parts of your life you love that simply can’t come with to the next phase. That is where I’m at now and reconciling that truth is painful. But I am grateful because I am not at the end even if I’m at the end of this phase. I am not out of options even if this option hasn’t panned out. I am human and having emotions and I am feeling the full spectrum: gratitude for the support and sadness at the changes, excited to have a new agreement and terrified to maintain the new, strong enough to move forward and concerned for my old patterns resurfacing. I am grateful for another day. For another chance. For time spent with my family and my friends. For love and for life. This is the season we are in, and it is ok to be here. Be grateful and keep going.
Wishing everyone a wonderful week ahead.