Today I am grateful to rise early enough to see the sun come up. I’m sitting in my office preparing for the day and I see the MOST beautiful light falling across the trees from the East. Gentle, assured, clear, and completely defined, the light spreads over the trees, awakening the world around me, removing all shadow of night and the previous day. It’s comforting that we have the light every morning and that we are given the chance to change what we did the day before. We literally see the birth of a new day and get a fresh start. Even though I went to bed late, sometimes the body knows to wake up early enough to experience this.
Today I am grateful for breakthrough. As I sat with my husband on Saturday evening watching a show about the seedy side of a fantasy world, I had an epiphany. Everything we see is a façade. I’m not just talking about in the social media sense of the word where we create and curate what people see about our lives. I’m talking about the fact that the moment we walk out the door, we become someone else. There are rarely those who wear the same face throughout the day and, after a rough day with my son, I had to ask myself what faces I created to the world and why I was so upset throughout the day. Maybe it was just a surplus of energy leftover from work or it was the final shedding of my own bullshit and realizing I’m in a different phase of my life now. Either way, I understood it was time to stop creating and start being. THAT’S authenticity.
Today I am grateful for following through on an experience I wanted. During some of yesterday’s tumult, I paused and did some earthing. It’s something I had been wanting to do as a reconnecting activity for a long time, but I never really did it. We were working on the flower beds around the house and I was nearing a meltdown, and something came over me where I simply kneeled and put my hands on the ground, covered in dirt and Earth and asked for help. I wasn’t miraculously healed or anything, but I did feel better. I felt a release in that surrender, in knowing I couldn’t keep that type of anger with me. I didn’t want that to continue to spill out.
Today I am grateful to experience nature. As I mentioned above, I spent some time earthing yesterday. Today we went out on the water so to connect with earth and water and feel the breeze the whole time made my fire soul a bit whole again. We need nature medicine more than we do not. We need it more than anything a doctor can give us. If we get quiet long enough, we will hear the calling of exactly what we need. I’ve been in a bit of deep series of thoughts lately, trying to do too much at once, and I knew I needed to slow down. I mentioned above I had been near meltdown when I literally just heard a voice saying put your hands and feet on the Earth. Today I felt the water, felt the sun, felt the air—all of it told me that it will be ok. I don’t have any answers, but I feel better. All is well.
Today I am grateful for organization. Yes, I’ve said it before, but I am grateful for it again. We spent some time organizing the house after we bought a couple of additional storage containers. I need to have an OCD moment and say how unbelievably satisfying it is to put things in order and to be able to see everything. And what a damn privilege to be able to put things in order. They often say to clean or organize or purge when you’re feeling down about something, and my God there is something so satisfying about organizing your life. It’s an outward expression of how we try to organize our thoughts. Plus, it just looks much better, just saying.
Today I am grateful for lessons from my child. Every now and then he says things to me that astound me with how aware and astute he is. My son told me today that I needed to find my comfort zone. The translation of that is actually him telling me to calm down. This child is so perceptive of when I’m off it’s a little scary. But I appreciated the reminder from him. It was and is time to redefine the comfort zone. It’s time to get comfortable with the uncomfortable. It’s time to accept things as they are and give up control. It’s time to embrace surrender. When what you’ve been doing is no longer working it is time to listen and find a new way. It’s time to try something new. And it’s time to be ok with being uncomfortable.
Wishing everyone a wonderful week ahead.