I am beyond exhausted tonight and I have a million things to do. I’m feeling the overwhelm of working full time, trying to launch a business part time, writing, raising a three year old, taking care of multiple animals, trying to get a house ready to move, trying to help plan things with my parents, and I haven’t been sleeping well. This is one of those times when it feels best to push through and at least accomplish a little something because the anxiety of letting it sit also kills me. But I simply can’t.
I hear my brain saying simply: no. Not tonight. Sit with this for a while and pause. Don’t think on it, just feel. Let yourself relax into it. It is so hard to not do something when anything will help. I know this is something inside of me telling me that tonight is just a night to breathe. Normally it wouldn’t be and I’d be forcing myself to do something in addition to writing this.
So tonight I am going to listen to the advice I would give to anyone else: listen to what your body is saying. I am going to listen to my body and sit down with a book under the covers and just relax. This is a prime example of not being able to pour from an empty cup. I am depleted so it is time to recharge even if it isn’t the ideal time. It feels uncomfortable, but hopefully tomorrow I will be more replenished and alert.