Today I am grateful for finding center. Over the last two days I’ve had the joy to speak with family and friends and to help direct me where I need to. With the overwhelm and the uncertainty weighing heavy the last few weeks, it felt good to speak with people who bring you back.
Today I am grateful for doing the work. There has been a lot going on in my life, personally and professionally, and I’ve allowed that to contribute to my overwhelm. I woke up today and realized that it was enough. It was enough complaining and telling myself that I didn’t know what to do. It was time to take action.
Today I am grateful to prepare. Things have been progressing but on hold at the same time. We are looking at options for our family and making decisions about what we want to do, the type of life we want to have in the future. In order for those things to happen, we need to do the work. We know that it will take some time and we had been waiting to start. We didn’t want to get our hopes up and lose on the opportunity we hope we have so we didn’t do much. But today we had to make a choice. Living in limbo wasn’t cutting it and it was causing more anxiety. So we just began. We began with clearing. We are creating the way for the future to come in.
Today I am grateful to recognize my patterns. I have been clinging so tightly to control. I am so fearful of letting go. I am fearful of not being prepared for any inevitability. Being that fearful has taken me out of the present moment. That is far too heavy a burden to carry. I’ve been feeling so off lately, trying to find where I need to change, where I have gotten in my own way. Recognizing the issue is the first step.
Today I am grateful for communication. My husband and I got into an argument today and it could have been really heated. After 19 years together, I saw my pattern and I paused. I looked at how he was feeling in the situation and recognized where I had the opportunity to do something differently.