Today I am grateful for the air in my lungs. Feeling my body inhaling and exhaling kept me centered nearly all day. I had to remind myself that sometimes we have to take things slower than we intended and that it is ok to take it one breath at a time.
Today I am grateful for my beating heart. Feeling the rhythmic pumping, so automated in its job, reminds me not to waste it because we never know when it will stop. Each beat is a gift and it is filled with purpose. Our job is not to waste those precious moments.
Today I am grateful to remember it is these key functions in life that push us forward. We are given the ability to move and create and build a life—it is up to us to make the most of it. I struggle with the perception of time and today ended up much further from where I wanted to be, but I moved forward nonetheless.
Today I am grateful for getting back into routine. While I’m working on building the life I want, I see what works for me and what doesn’t. I am reshaping the routine that I was used to in favor of the routine I want to have for myself.
Today I am grateful for a weekend spent rejuvenating (for the most part). We were supposed to get a terrible storm so we had prepped early so we could stay home as needed. While there were some tense moments, I was definitely able to spend time at home working on the other things I wanted to. Saturday was much more productive than today, but, seeing as change is uncomfortable, switching it up and learning what works for me self-care wise is a worthy investment.
Today I am grateful for seeing the real side of people. I learned a painful lesson last night, one that will take a while to want to discuss, but I learned it. Sometimes the people you think are in your court simply are in their own. It doesn’t mean you are bad or stupid, it just means you left your heart open to the wrong people. Cut your losses, wish them well, and move on.
Today I am grateful for the time to really think about my role in this world. My husband was not feeling the greatest today so we ended up with quite a bit of down time. I felt frustrated and alone, but as the day went on, I realized the pause was there to help me recognize where I have the opportunity to readjust. Not only that but where I have the opportunity to really move forward where I want to. I had the time to think about the things I need to do and the changes I have to make to achieve those goals. None of it is easy, but if I’m honest with myself, it is necessary.
Today I am grateful to understand what it means to have a team. Based on the events of the last few weeks, I see the pattern that I really need to be cautious about who I spend my time with and where I direct my energy. I see the people, or at least they type of people, I need to have in my court. Since I am no longer trying to play small for the sake of others, I feel this is the natural progression of things. The people who were with me for personal gain, whether it was money or things I gave them, will fall away as I evolve into a person who creates things. Elevate my mindset, elevate my life, let the rest fall away.
Today I am grateful to understand that I’ve been holding onto things. I thought it was about taking things slowly and being cautious, but now I understand it was about fear of letting go because I didn’t know what was next. Sometimes we have to approach change like pulling off a band-aid. Rip it off quickly and move on—especially when we’ve been holding so tightly to things that don’t serve.