“I feel my way into faith one step at a time” Gabby Bernstein, Super Attractor Deck. One aspect of my faith that has never wavered is my ability to believe in signs. When I receive a particular response to an emotion or to a question, I DO listen. For all of my stubbornness, I am grateful that my heart recognizes guidance when it sees it and is wise enough to listen.
After the intense emotions of fear, anger, and failure over the last few days, I woke up this morning knowing that I had to recommit to belief…in something. Even if it meant one small step and learning to do one thing at a time, as much as the mind is willing to move forward at full speed, my soul has been telling me it doesn’t work like that. For someone as driven as me this feels incredibly limiting and frustrating. I know I have the capacity to do all of the things I want to so when things get in the way to prevent them from happening, it’s hard to accept those limitations.
Drawing that card this morning is a strong affirmation that as much as we want to take leaps and bounds toward our goals, it is merely our ego that is in a hurry. The soul knows what it needs to do and it knows in what time. It amazes me how easy it was to fall back into the patterns of self-loathing and fear simply because a few things didn’t go according to plan. No one is meant to feel like a failure—because there is nothing that we can truly fail at.
Having faith is as simple as reframing failure into redirection. It was a challenge for me over the last few days to get my mind back in line. That in itself was disappointing to me, but I think about a few months ago and how long that would have taken me previously to snap out of it. In the grand scheme of things, a few days in a funk isn’t that bad for me. And I’m proud I was able to get myself out of it. It quite literally was one step at a time and recognizing that those emotions were not what I wanted to feel and I had to change that. Everything is a choice and sometimes we have to slow down and look at where we are being guided. Even if it wasn’t what we had in our minds, the plan laid out for us is often greater. I’m making the choice to step into that—one step at a time.