Today I am grateful for the truth.  We are in the grim process of cleaning up my Aunt’s house after her death—the entire family is gone now so it is only us able to do this.  Nothing allows us to process what has happened and what to do next like the truth.  That’s the only thing that allows us to make sense of the situation, it’s why the human mind will always try to logic its way through the scenario, why it will always try to come up with an answer—it’s trying to make things make sense.  The brain will fill in the gaps and try to complete the story and then it will try to rationalize what happened and what was going on.  It amazes me how we have differing experiences even if we are in the same moment.  We have these images of who people are, what we think their experiences were, how they felt and what they thought.  And sometimes, if we are lucky enough, we find the evidence we need to know for sure what was happening, the story of who they are.  Sometimes we can hear it and know, sometimes we need to see it.  But the truth is once we know it, it’s there.  Sometimes we need to ask ourselves if we really need that solidified.  The closure we need is in the way we feel anyway.  And now, I have closure.  My brain doesn’t want to accept parts of it, that stubborn belief that people will always be their best and fulfill their potential (and that they want to, but there is nothing more that can dispute it.  This is what happened, and this is the end result.  There is no need to waste energy trying to make it something else.  There are no re-dos in this game, it’s over.  That’s the truth.    

Today I am grateful for clear signs and reminders.  Seeing the patterns in the family that are 100% evident and obvious, has given me a harsh reality check on a few things.  As I’ve been organizing my thoughts and emotions around everything that has happened in the family, I see more clearly than ever that emotional management is the only way to move forward.  If I want to achieve my dreams and goals then it’s up to me to keep that alive—and letting emotions run rampant to the point I’m unable to function isn’t going to do it.  I’m in the mausoleum of a life that someone allowed that to happen.  Holding onto the emotions, documenting every mark against themselves, looking for their dues, what is right.  I’m learning that isn’t the way to “Get what is owed,” that’s how we start to nosedive in this world.  This family had everything—through hard work and dedication and determination, this family literally created the makings of an empire.  And for pride, for fear, for pleasure, for guilt, for comfort, for ego and what it thought it was owed, they literally crashed it to the ground thinking that was the only way.  We have the opportunity to change the view on this, and that’s what I’m going to do before it’s too late.  The sign/reminder is this: to fly free and pursue the life we are actually meant to have, we need to put the emotion away, close the book, and move on. 

Today I am grateful for understanding responsibility.  We are entirely responsible for our lives and the results we get.  We are responsible for making changes when necessary, for pulling up when we see that we are about to hit, for taking stock and understanding when the situation needs us to pivot—specifically when we see our actions are causing more harm than good.  I hear the way the remaining members of the family speak to each other and I hear them in the phrases I’ve found myself uttering as well.  I ask myself, “are these even really MY feelings or is this something I’m picking up from them?”  Worse, I see that it has been engrained in me so long that I’ve managed to pass some of those beliefs to my husband in the way we operate our family, and in my son under the guise of doing his best turning into perfectionism.  That isn’t who I want to be.  I want to do better     

Today I am grateful for learning forgiveness and patience.  In all this mess, I have my Aunt’s cat.  It’s painful but also kind of ironic.  There’s the loss of my aunt just shy of the year mark of my other Aunt, only a month after the loss of my own cat.  I was NOT anticipating getting another cat and now we are managing an outdoor cat from the neighborhood and now we have this cat.  He is an incredibly sweet boy but also unbelievably shy and scared.  It takes a lot of work to get through to an animal like that and the entire process has brought me into the present moment—that’s all I can do is be present.  I feel so bad for this animal knowing the few days of torture he must have gone through right after my Aunt died.  There is the family dynamic to heal in taking on this animal because he is literally the last living link to her.  There is nothing else we can resolve with her, the family is gone, but we have this animal who had nothing to do with the history who needs our help and love.  And it’s requiring immense patience and will and acceptance and forgiveness to move forward.  It’s sad and healing all at once.  The healing comes with forgiving everything that happened, every horrible event in that home, in the family, in the business.  And putting love in its place.          

Today I am grateful for peace.  There is so much to say about this, some I have said before, some I have felt before.  But what I’m sitting with in this moment is that at the end of the day life will always move on, stuff is just stuff until someone puts value to it, empires will fall if we don’t treat them with respect,  it’s our responsibility to take care of our lives and turn them into something valuable outside of physical/material things, and we only have control over how we live and the definitions we put in place/what we give meaning to because when all is said and done, someone will be going through everything and determining what’s garbage and what isn’t.  I’m grateful this entire mess has shown me what it is to let go and how to reconcile the emotion—ok, maybe not now, but what needs to be done in order to truly move on.  We have to make peace with these emotions, these fears, our behaviors, and then we can change what needs to be changed—and that changes the rest of the course.  And I truly am at peace with all of that.     

Wishing everyone a wonderful week ahead

“The most magnetic thing in the universe is you liking you,” JB Copeland.  When we like ourselves we are able to support who we are and we are able to draw our power because we know our skills and our abilities and when we like that about ourselves, we continue to draw power and attract those who can help bring that to life. The universe is attracted to love and positive energy so when we like ourselves, we are attracting all of the positive around us as well.  If we are going to give up what we knew, if we are going to realize that the change is worth the fear of stepping into the unknown and release the weight of carrying what we told ourselves we had to carry, then we need to know we are capable, that we love ourselves, that we appreciate our abilities. 

People struggle with this because they think it comes down to ego—so either they shut the concept down because they think ego is bad or they take it too far and become egotistical.  Liking oneself actually has nothing to do with ego.  Liking oneself is an appreciation for the life we have and life in general.  When we like ourselves we find these innate skills that need to be used to navigate through our days, how we help others, how we show up in the world because when we like ourselves, we find our authentic frequency.  If we struggle with appreciating what we have then we will likely not be comfortable appreciating what’s to come.  We won’t be open enough to receive it.

Liking ourselves is more about taking up the mantle of our capabilities and accepting responsibility for the life we want to create and how it impacts others.  It has very little to do with what we want and more to do with who we are so ego has nothing to do with it.  It’s us refining our skills so we can enter the flow of life and live as we are meant to.  So we can help others by being an example of what it takes to serve, to life, and to share.  When we do those things, when we know who we are and we accept that responsibility, the universe responds intensely by opening all the doors to what we want and are meant to have.  Serving our purpose and bringing it all together mean more than any material thing we can show the world to prove our worth.  How we use our skills and what we share with the world is where it matters—and that all starts with liking ourselves enough to accept who we are and to own our role. 

“When you command the universe for change, don’t flinch as the old world shatters to dust beneath your feet,” Wild Woman Sisterhood.  I like this little reminder as continued encouragement from yesterday.  As someone who has spent a majority of life trying to keep everything under control and making it appear a certain way, as someone who frequently fell apart at the slightest inconvenience, I can attest that I wanted things to change without changing.  I can also confirm that I felt that anything that fell apart was a personal attack and a direct reflection of my worth and ability.  I was never taught that sometimes the old has to fall apart to make way for the new.  I read Billy Crystal’s “700 Sundays” (the book the show was based on—I wrote about that a while ago) and there is reference to Zutty Singleton about the rose—how sometimes, even as beautiful as the flower is, we need to cut it back to make way for something even more.  I struggled with that because I have an intense appreciation for the bloom of what got me here.  How do I let go of what is perfectly good in order to get something else?  Can’t we just expand?

But as I’ve gotten older I’ve learned that we simply can’t bear the weight of all of it.  We can’t have the life we used to have and a new one—we aren’t designed to carry both.  The brain can’t live in two worlds at once.  And the fact that we can’t hold it doesn’t indicate we are weak.  We have to learn that when things break it isn’t because we have failed or that we are incapable.  It’s because we are so strong that the old ways can’t hold us.  We are evolving and developing to a new level.  Destruction is terrifying but it is also a good sign.  When we clear the landscape, we have room to build anew.  We can always appreciate what was and what got us to where we are—but that is what served as a foundation for us, not a permanent residence.  If we decide we want something new and suddenly all we knew is falling apart, take heart.  The universe is showing us our power and how it responds to what we want.  Appreciate it because we wouldn’t get what didn’t align.  It’s not as if things will empty to never fill again.  No, we are clearing space to bring in what we are meant to have.  To serve a bigger purpose. Embrace the change.

“Make decisions that reflect your worth, not your fear,” Spirit Daughter.  Things will fall apart.  Sometimes it feels like the entire premise of our lives is in question because we have no bearing for who we are.  When we look around us we don’t see anything of what we want, we aren’t even really sure who made those decisions that brought us to where we are.  As I mentioned yesterday, it’s easy to focus on the negative because we are naturally prone to look for signs that something is off in case it means danger is around.  We don’t face the same types of threats that we did in those primal days but that instinct is still there—we want to survive even if the environment for what we consider survival has shifted.  It’s funny how society preys on this as well—we still try to ensure survival to a degree by creating these hierarchies of imagined worth.  We are all human and the truth is we are no different than the next person.  We all have the ability to shift our reality.  What we focus on is what makes us different.    

The truth is that if the worst of what impacts our survival is our own ego, then we have a pretty sweet deal—damage to the ego will not kill us.  In all cases enough time will pass where people won’t remember the event that caused us embarrassment—but we will always remember and wonder about missed opportunities.  So focus on what we know we are worth and what we can contribute to the world instead of what we are afraid of.  As in our discussion yesterday, when we speak about what is wrong and what is bad, that is what we will bring into our lives.  So at all times we need to remember who we are and what we are capable of and we need to be grateful for that, grateful for the opportunity to bring about results with that type of power.  I can’t make any of us feel confident and believe in the power of their words, to remember their worth.  But I can speak about it enough that perhaps we will start to remember that we are all inherently worthy and that all we have around us is illusion anyway.  We don’t need to define ourselves with things or appearance.  We simply need to let those things and our appearance be a reflection of who we are.

Being settled and confident in who we are is the ultimate reminder of our worth and that immediately quelches any fears we have.  This all goes back to my constant refrain of knowing ourselves is the foundation for everything we want.  When we know who we are, we know our frequency, we know the energy we put out into the universe.  We may not always know what we will get back but we know that we will be able to handle anything that comes our way.  It isn’t about knowing the result or what everything looks like, it’s about being assured that everything that comes our way is within our scope of expertise and is no reflection or question of worth but rather our ability to turn whatever it is into whatever it needs to be.  There is nothing to be afraid of outside of bodily harm.  There is no real danger outside of bodily harm.  The rest is a game of will and desire.  So always remember who we are and what we are capable of.   

“Venting is a false premise. When you talk about your problems in order to vent them out of your body you’re simply mentally rehearsing those problems into your life more firmly, you’re anchoring your problems more deeply into your life.  The mental game, all of these high performing individuals, realize that what they say think and feel is essential to what shows up in their life.  We’ve been conditioned to focus on what holds us down.  We need to mentally rehearse the successful optimistic version you will actually bring about that successful life,” from upspiral.life.  This is a hard habit to break because it is so indoctrinated in our culture to look at the negative, to share the negative.  Mark Manson says that complaining is how weak people connect and that complaining is the junk food of social connection—where it feels good in the moment but it makes you weak and fragile in the long run.  He says when you stop complaining it makes space for all of the things that actually help the situation. 

We are taught that mutual misery is a real connection—and believe me I’ve experienced situations where mutual misery became a strong connection because we worked on how to get out of it together.  We learned to battle it together and we learned to change our circumstances together.  But when we play this game of whose day is worse than whose, we lose the opportunity to see what is good.  If we want to see the good we need to focus on the good—and if we want to attract the good we need to develop the skill of speaking what we want into existence.  It’s a hard habit to break.  Evolutionarily we are alive because we are trained to recognize what is wrong in any situation so we avoid danger or hurt.  But continually focusing on the negative and discussing all that is perceived as wrong in our lives will only perpetuate what is wrong.  See what we don’t talk about with evolution is the premise that we can uplevel and manage what comes through by managing our thoughts and what we speak.  Thoughts and words have power. 

We have the power to shift and create what is good.  We need to learn the difference between constructive evaluation of a day versus rehashing the negative into existence until it becomes a pattern.  We don’t need to vent—we feel powerless in the midst of a situation so we don’t react how we want to (we often don’t feel we are able to because of these false ideas of hierarchy and power) so we stuff it down and then we talk with others later about how we really feel and we experience the frustration all over again but it’s magnified because we realize that we didn’t align with how we really felt in the moment.  Not everything will go our way, or at least it won’t all go exactly as we plan it. That doesn’t mean it’s all crap or all for nothing.  When we rehash those moments, it’s important to take the opportunity to learn from them and try again.  Focus on the good, understand the power is in transforming our mindset to transform our reality.  Eliminating complaining and focus on the negative sets us up to win in the end because we are highlighting the possibilities and opportunities in every situation.  We can change our future one thought at a time.  

“Sometimes winning means you have to quit; Sunk cost fallacy is a fallacy.  No matter how much time you have invested in the life and love you have now you are not destined to continue living it if that is the life you are not meant to live in the future.  If the metal around your finger starts to look more like a shackle holding you to the past rather than a circle promising the hope of the future then have the courage to untether yourself.  We cannot get to the life we are meant to live if we are too busy living the life we feel obligated to uphold…never underestimate the power of inertia and its ability to keep you in an unhappy relationship forever in exchange for the comfort of familiarity.  Never forget that he greatest loss you will incur is the loss of time you could have spent finding out that joy lies just on the other side of the comfort you’ve taken…The greatest glory waits for those who are willing to ignore the shame that others want you to feel when you quit what is not for you,” Anna Kai.  Kai discusses this in the context of limiting ourselves based on relationships but this is easily applied to everything in our lives.  It doesn’t matter the type of relationship or if this is about work or continuing on a path we stared and feel we need to finish it simply because we started it—even if it doesn’t feel right any longer.

I invested thousands of dollars in different ventures in my time.  Always trying to find the fastest way to find who I was.  One day I was interested in languages, then massage, then healthcare, then holistic care, then changing everything, then mental health.  Marie Forleo talks about being a multi-passionate entrepreneur.  I used to get frustrated that all of these ventures failed—or that I failed in them.  I thought I would never be able to run a business for myself because I had tried so many things and wasn’t able to manage it successfully.  I realized that all of the things I had been trying to do were part of my personality and I needed to find a way to puzzle them all together.  I wasn’t one thing—I was all of these things.  It didn’t matter what I had been doing before because I had learned lessons in each of the attempts at creating freedom.  I wasn’t tethering myself to a relationship, I was tethered to a belief that I was a failure and destined to carry the weight of someone else’s dream, sacrificing my own dreams.  It was time to let go of the obligation of what I created.

It can be a tricky concept to let go of what we had in order to gain something else—and for those of us who have tried and haven’t gotten the results we were looking for it adds another layer.  Will it work this time?  Do we even know if we really know ourselves?  The comfort we feel sticking with what we know or the guilt we feel for the energy we’ve put into something only to have it not turn out doesn’t mean that we can’t try again—that we can’t find what works for us.  It may take a different route but once we cut the weight of what was holding us back we are able to fly exactly where we need to be.  Sometimes we have to get to higher ground to get our bearings—the climb is worth it.  Forget what others think about our circumstances—we are responsible for living our lives, not living them for someone else.  People will always have something to say.  They will always feel a certain way.  Do what is right for us anyway.

The biggest green light we have is being entirely who we are—and that is a green light we give ourselves.  We have the least resistance when we are in the flow of who we are.  The world needs us to be that version of ourselves, the version we all have that tells us the right thing, that guides us by how we feel.  We all have it–we all do.  I always found it fascinating that some people were born with this thing in them that allows them to be so cool and able to go with whatever is happening around them all while maintaining their boundaries.  How they could be so willing to try new things and go for it no matter what people thought or if it didn’t work they would try again.  I always took the first no as final and it left me searching for additional ways to find who I was.  If I couldn’t do it the first time around, I didn’t learn how to adapt and try again.

This started to feel like a disconnect in my body because I knew I had this drive, this pull toward making things and doing things for myself but I had this malfunction if I couldn’t get it right so I would stop and have a fit about making it how I wanted it.  I never wanted to be under the command of someone else. I wanted to steer my own ship and pick up what I wanted to carry. The more it started to pull harder and harder it was to continue on the same path.  The path I was meant to be on became more clear.  I came from creators, I am a creator.  I had to allow myself to heal and allow the fullest expression of myself because my success is in my creativity.  We need to connect with who we are and let that version of ourselves out. So I slow down a bit and allow myself to connect with who and what I am. 

I pulled some cards today and they reminded me that guidance is always available.  We just need to slow down and connect with spirit.  I’ve been receiving a lot of signs and hearing a lot of discussion around intuition, meditation, and connecting with self lately.  I’ve often wondered if that was part of the issue with the world today.  We are so easily accessible to the world with the click of a few buttons and we can watch anyone anywhere any time—but we never take the time to connect with ourselves anymore.  I think we have distracted ourselves away from being who we are meant to be.  We can only find that authenticity in connecting with spirit and the truth of who we are.  We operate at a speed that isn’t sustainable and it certainly doesn’t allow us to connect with others—there is no real connection to others if we aren’t connected to ourselves.  If we want that green light, that universal go, then we must go with what we are called to do.

Today I am grateful for every step toward clarity.  This is establishing my freedom because it’s allowing for a definitive direction.  I recently realized that the things I thought were working for me really weren’t.  Shocker.  But what I mean by this is little things like the way my office was set up.  The things I was saving in random piles under the pretense of eventually doing something with them or simply the fact that I couldn’t part with them.  The feeling of trying to hold on to so many things.  I started with what I thought were small changes like rearranging the office and cleaning stuff out and suddenly things felt better.  Space opened up differently.  It didn’t feel so cluttered and crowded and once I started I couldn’t stop.  As the space cleared and I organized and tackled things I was too afraid to address, I noticed I could think.  It wasn’t easy but I started to let go of even more things that I had been holding onto—and I admitted how much stuff we still have.  I started to see possibilities again.  Instead of finding ways to make things fit, I started finding ways to let go.  We can’t move forward if we are holding onto everything else.  It’s too heavy.  Moving through the process of letting go of the last round of 20 years of stuff allows the next 20 years to flow in because I can see what I want versus what I thought I had to hold onto. 

Today I am grateful for intuition.  I can’t talk about clarity, the ability to think, and purpose without intuition.  Throughout this entire week I’ve been getting multiple signs telling me that my intuition is sharpening and that I need to follow my intuition.  It’s 100% true.  As I worked through the steps above and started to feel heightened clarity I noticed that I felt more like me.  It wasn’t just about seeing possibilities and options, I was now feeling like I had power in my life again.  When we know what we want and set the wheels in motion there is no stopping us from getting there—we just need to start.  The heart, mind, and soul know what we need.  We just need to feel our way through it to get to it.  I held onto so much stuff from the past as a crutch all the while I was telling myself that I needed it for in case, for if I ever had to prove anything, so I could always remember.  I’m a record keeper.  But having all of that information blocked the way to what was really important: who I actually am.  We can handle so much more than we think if we stop picking up what isn’t ours or what we really don’t want in the first place.    

Today I am grateful for creativity.  We are looking at alternative ways of living our lives and feeling that connection toward intuition and power, I started to feel something new for the first time in a long time: the feeling that I could do it and knew what I wanted.  I felt the drive to work my ass off for a specific thing.  It felt like pieces of the puzzle were snapping into place—the picture I’ve been trying to build was totally in focus.  I’ve pursued many ventures in my life, spent a lot of time/energy/money trying to get things in place, things I genuinely thought I wanted.  There are moments I wonder if I’d had more support how those things would have turned out—but in the process of connecting with self, I’m seeing that isn’t anything to lament or be upset about.  I needed to go through those things to discover that there are ways to put things together that no everyone sees.  We have a vision that works off of our intuition and if we are connected to it enough, that intuition will tell us how to put that vision to work.  There are so many possibilities in this world.  All we need to do is learn how to work with them and how to understand what is for us.  Creativity is meant to do that: create alternatives, create ideas, make the intangible tangible.  We aren’t meant to just use that creativity to day dream.  We are meant to put that to action.  If we think it, it’s for a reason.  If we feel it, it’s meant to be no matter what other people think is possible.  Create with that power, fuel it.  Say yes and watch it all nfold. 

Today I am grateful for seeing patterns.  Clearly I’m on a theme here, but as I was cleaning this go around, I came across some decades old writings and my heart sank.  I’ve been very candid about sharing my repetitive thoughts and feelings and fears here, but this was something different.  Around 18 months ago I went through a large purge in the house and I was so proud of myself.  Earlier this year I took some of the remnants from that purge and got rid of more and then organized the rest.  Each time I went through layers of crap I felt more and more power, more and more clear.  I had the sense of “This is it! I finally see the way!”  And then I found this writing.  It said EXACTLY the same thing I’ve been talking about for years.  I found the SAME goals I have written in the recent years.  And it nearly broke my heart.  I realized that I’ve, yet again, been running circles.  I had this moment of intense sadness that 1. I haven’t accomplished what I set out to yet and 2. All of the effort and progress I thought I made were still keeping me rooted right here.  This is where it’s different this time (because this is not the first time I’ve had this “revelation”: I stopped myself from getting attached to the emotion of it.  I accepted that it happened and that it’s time to cut it out.  The surge of energy and power I felt from connecting with creativity, intuition, and clarity pushed me past getting stuck in feeling bad about the patterns. I no longer have to stay that way.

Today I am grateful for next steps.  I’ve read/heard/written that people often overestimate what they can do in a day but underestimate what they can do in a week—feel free to substitute any length of time you want in there.  The neurodivergent mind operates differently in several ways the least of which is we see all things, all options, at once and we will try our damndest to do all the things at once.  When it doesn’t work out we tend to get frustrated and/or bored so we walk away and won’t touch it again because we’re moving onto the next thing—until we realized we didn’t finish it and we hyper-focus on it again.  So much of what I’ve missed out on, what I haven’t completed, what I lost touch with was because I got bored or angry that things didn’t work out right away.  My brain saw how it “should” work and when it didn’t it couldn’t cope, the world ended because it was never meant to be, and I went onto something else until that wasn’t meant to be either.  I’m older now and I have a son who deals with the same type of brain function so it’s crystal clear to me that I didn’t give certain things enough time, I didn’t give enough focus to it, I didn’t try enough ways.  And if I’m totally honest I hadn’t been close enough to my intuition to determine if I really wanted it so it was more about proving I could do it rather than wanting it.  Breaking the pattern means giving myself the time to connect and evaluate what I need/want.  I know I can take the next steps and it will be aligned because I’ve taken the time to get out of my own way.  The next steps are steps toward success.    

Wishing everyone a wonderful week ahead.

I pulled my cards this morning and they were: The universe powerfully responds the instant I realign with love, Thank you universe for helping me see beyond the limits of fear, thank you for expanding my perception so I can see the highest good, when I move my body I feel empowered, cleansed, and strong.  I said this in response:  Align with love and clear fear to see the highest good.  We move our bodies to clear that fog and find how we want to feel and suddenly the fear is erased and we understand what we are meant to do, who we are meant to be. Love and movement is power.  The Earth, the universe do not stand still.  While we find balance in the quiet and stillness, it is in finding our rhythm that we become who we are.  Ther is no fear in that wholeness.  How can we love a bit more today?  How can we find more joy?  Respond to the rhythm of our heart.

The irony that this happened on the same day that I was writing about Green Lights in a moment of inspiration about movement (and I have a full piece on Green Lights from a couple of years ago) that these cards pop up and talks of movement and following our hearts.  I took it as a sign to move and follow my desire and creativity.  I then listened to one of the tarots and he spoke of Green and Gold—the heart and solar plexus and moving forward and following our inner light.  The next tarot spoke of serendipity and seeing the highest good.  All of these things intertwined on the same day making it clear that this was the message meant for me. 

I share this because the universe often has messages and I stopped believing that for a while as recently as three weeks ago.  My mind was/is exhausted from an entire summer spent in limbo with so many things happening at once and some not happening at all.  Not getting a job with a huge opportunity to secure us a bit more, my father blessedly coming through his procedure, then so unexpectedly losing my soul cat.  I saw no reason for any of this.  The truth is I still don’t see a reason for it and I still ache every day wishing I could change those losses.  I wouldn’t give up the wins, and I know we can’t win them all, but this summer had some tough new realities and changes.  But here we are, the summer almost over, and now I see these reminders that there are still signs.  There are still messages.  There is still life to live—even if it looks and feels different.  Sometimes it isn’t how we thought it would be—but there is always more.  So I pause as the world keeps spinning and I wait for my next green light and realign with the love that is still here.  It never left.

Spin stories, tell stories, use words to help and teach. Love fully.  Let go of fear.  Have fun—it really isn’t that serious.  I thought I had to behave a certain way—remnants of a 20’s, 30’s, 40’s, 50’s upbringing (the previous generation taught me that).  Reminders of a time gone by.  Always trying to fit in and be acceptable instead of just being accepted—or accepting.  The world changes and us in it as well.  This is why we share stories.  Telling of times gone by—loves had, lessons learned.  People coming together and falling apart.  The beauty in every day life, in humanity, in tradition, in what works and is passed won, in learning, in creating, in exploring—in LIVING.  I was recently reminded of the flow, of the go when I saw an article about Matthew McConaughey.  McConaughey talks of Green Lights—there are those moments where it feels like the torrent, the flow of life has been released after being stopped.  But I’ve realized that all of life is a Green Light.  While certain things may slow down or be stopped, life itself does NOT stop.  We are a go from the moment we are born.  We may need to pause and evaluate and redirect– but this life never stops.  So I learn to focus on one thing.  Complete one thing at a time and keep notes on the rest.  There is a lot of world to see, so while we can’t see it all at once, we live and see it when we are meant to. I am meant to explore, to write, to travel, to love, to create, to unite—to tell the stories we need to share.  Stop getting caught in the muck and live fully: don’t stop.