Today I am grateful for accepting my limits.  I will be taking a sabbatical of sorts.  I even had to look up the difference between sabbatical and hiatus—a sabbatical means I have the intention to return and a hiatus implies no guarantee of returning.  I have every intention of coming back and continuing posting but to continue on with any sort of quality, I need to pause for a while to take care of a few other things going on in my life right now.  I am also aware that I need to evaluate the structure, focus, and intention of my work.  I have always intended to use my life as a mirror of sorts to let people know they aren’t alone, that imperfection is normal and should be celebrated, that life doesn’t always go how we thought it would and sometimes that’s the best thing that can happen to us.  I wanted people to see that no matter how hard it got, they could pick up the pieces and start over.  If it wasn’t a clean break and people wanted to make a change, I wanted them to see that small steps work.  I know writing is the path for me but I no longer want to repeat the same mistakes and circular discussions in my head because I’m stuck in the same environment that I have been.  Those patterns have led me to the cycle of feeling like I’ve made some breakthrough/revelation only to fall flat on my face again.  The highs and lows are just no longer sustainable and I need to find the right road for me, the one that helps me navigate a more authentic path. I need to clean up my life, my mindset, and take a break.  I can’t be the mirror I want to be if I’m not becoming the person I want to be and in order to become that person, I can’t keep the old life going during that transition.  I need to stop and then start again.  So that is also something I wanted people to understand—that it’s ok to recognize when we can’t keep going or when something has to change.  I wanted people to understand that living with one foot on each side of the track only divides ourselves in half in the end.  It’s time to pause, evaluate where I’m at, decide the direction, do a little recalibration and centering, and then pick up again.  I will absolutely return because I can’t see my life without writing in it; not writing isn’t my life.  I am a writer.  I am also human and have a sensitive soul and my heart/mind/soul are very tired right now.  I will potentially still share things and different pieces on this journey but for now, I think I have a post or two scheduled for this week and that will be it for a while.  Thank you all and I look forward to returning as the person I have truly always wanted to be.   

Wishing everyone a wonderful week ahead.