
In the spirit of the horse I want to revisit part of a piece I shared years ago. Florence Welch sings in her song “Shake it Out” from 2011, “And I’ve been a fool and I’ve been blind; I can never leave the past behind. I can see no way, I can see no way. I’m always dragging that horse around. All of his questions such a mournful sound. Tonight I’m gonna bury that horse in the ground; I’m done with my graceless heart, so tonight I’m gonna cut it out and then restart; it’s hard to dance with a devil on your back.” I sing and share this song as an anthem for the momentum of this year. The things that hold us back are in our own minds. We can decide to move forward and let the dead horse lie because what good does it do to continue to beat the issue to death? All it serves is an anchor to a time when we were a different person. Even the happy moments we’d like to replay in our minds no longer exist and that can lead to it own type of pain seeking that feeling again. What have we told ourselves we need to keep with us and for what reason? Do we display our faults as a sort of penance? Do we hide them because we fear what others will think of us? Yes and Yes, whether we know it or not.
The human psyche wants to be accepted and seeks protection knowing it’s part of a group and somehow validated. We either hide what we are for fear of not being included or we display them for some sort of demonstration of self-awareness/self-deprecation. In either case we lose sight of the potential of what we can be and who we are. We take these tings we’ve done and somehow make them our identity. Even if we know all the millions of facets of who we are and all the millions of other things we’ve done that were right on par, we find a way to relive those fantastic lows. This year is about movement and I encourage all of us to look at the horses we need to bury and the ones that will take us to freedom. What devils have we created and decided to carry along for the ride? To dance, we must be free of those burdens. We must forgive ourselves and create a new story, one that we tell, not the devils inside our minds.
I still remember the first time I heard “Shake it Out” and how it stopped me in my tracks. Hearing the lyrics I shared above triggered such an emotion it was as if I’d written them myself. Repeating the same stories doesn’t show us a new option and, personally, this is the year I want to move forward. I know what the same story has gotten me all this time and I’m tired of it. I know what this version looks like day in and day out and there’s a reason I’ve been trying to leave it behind—we all have something like that. But we can restart, and as we spoke about yesterday, this year in particular demands it. This is a chance to finally leave those pieces of us in the past with no regret. Take charge and take the journey forward. Take the lessons and figure out how to apply them on the next phase. Make peace with whatever we need to and accept that’s enough, forgiving ourselves is enough. Embracing who we are is enough. We are enough to move forward.
