Today’s cards stuck out to me so let’s dive deeper.  The cards (from Gabby Bernstein and Micaela Ezra, the decks I use every day 😊) were: ‘I slow down and listen to the guidance that’s available to me; The moment I embrace my peace within and surrender the outcome is the moment that the universe can get to work; I am a lightworker in disguise, I don’t have to talk about it, I can just be it.’  I immediately wrote the following: Sometimes we just have to stop.  Stop talking, stop thinking, stop pretending, stop proving, stop controlling, stop being everything we are not, stop being who we are told to be.  Stop all the doing, being anywhere but where we are.  But we can’t do nothing.  When we stop, we must listen.  We must surrender all we know (or think we know) and allow the universe to guide and carry us to the point we can stand on our own completely in who we are. Only in our fully authenticity can we understand the freedom of allowing, because that is when we have allowed ourselves full communion with mind, body, soul, and source.  Lately we’ve been doing it all (I know it isn’t just me) and it all seems to lead nowhere, running against the current.  So today we slow, stop, and listen to guidance….surrender the doing in favor of hearing.  Who we are will become clear and we simply be. 

Sitting in silence, waiting, is one of the hardest things to do.  We are trained to do, to constantly move.  Our brain doesn’t understand not doing.  The body/soul/mind get the need for peace, but we are trained to ignore that.  We ignore what real peace is and what we do to find real peace.  I’ve always become frustrated with the people who reach out for advice and then do the exact opposite of what I’ve shared only to have to go back and do what I suggested in the first place.  So why do I do that with the universe?  If I’m told to relax, that what I’m working on isn’t where I should be focusing right now, why do I insist on pushing through?  Why when the inspiration hits, when I know I need to work on my projects do I deny myself that opportunity?  Do I do it because I love what I’m “supposed” to be doing?  No. I do it because I feel I have to do those things—people don’t understand what I’m trying to do so I prove myself with what I’m supposed to do.

There’s a message of inherent worth in here along with allowing.  We don’t need to prove anything, we don’t need to earn the right to be who we are.  That isn’t to say what we love isn’t work—no one gets through this life on a free ride—but it is to say that when we embrace all we are and we learn to listen to that guidance (and heed it) that work looks and feels different.  I’ve carved away significant portions of all the proving and the work I was doing in order to “earn” my time doing what I love and I have focused on these projects with abandon.  Yet, I am reminded every day how much further I have to go.  I still feel like I’ve only scratched the surface of diving into what it feels like to lose ourselves in the love of who we are, the work, the things, the being, the flow of who we are.  I’m still caught in the endless doing.  The only way we break that pattern is through full acceptance, clarity, and surrender—act on the advice/guidance we are given.  Even if it is scary and different than what we’re used to/what we would normally do, heed the advice like we would have given it to ourselves and see what happens.  Simply BE.