I welcome this time and these changes and this new beginning.  I am grateful to begin again and to accept the healing that comes from leaving the past behind.  There is excitement here, on this new day, this New Year as there is always an anticipation of what is to come.  There is also a calm certainty and acceptance here—I know this isn’t a light switch where one day I am someone and the next day I am someone else.  There is work to continue to shed who I previously defined myself as so I can become the fullest version of who I am.  I start this day at home, settling in the new habits toward the life I want, the life that fits me so much better than what I’ve been trying to force myself to fit into.  I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t scared or unsure of what’s to come, especially because this is a deeper dive into my resolve to not be who I was.    I still am learning who this person is but I’m no longer merely wearing the persona as a coat—I’m here, fully showing up in who I am, fully committed and doing what I need to.

I’m grateful for the opportunities I have and I am grateful to be given another chance—I am grateful we all have another chance to be who we are meant to be.  That didn’t require waiting for a New Year, we can change every day—sometimes multiple times in a day and sometimes we do just that.  I am grateful to understand the power I have (we have) to set our course and be who we are meant to be.  Once we let go of the fear of what other people think and the presumption we need to be who other people say we are or that we need to live up to someone else’s obligation before committing to ourselves, we are entirely free to develop the understanding of who we are and what we are capable of—and what we can do with that power/those talents. 

I’m hopeful for things to turn out how they are meant to with commitment and patience and I trust I am able to withstand any curveballs this world throws at me.  I’m hopeful that I will understand that even if I don’t fully understand the things that happen and what’s coming my way that it will make sense in due time.  I’m hopeful a new, positive reality will settle over everyone where we will find a different level of peace so we can work together toward a positive, healthy existence for all.  I’m hopeful what doesn’t work will be left behind and that we will find a way to promote the greater good over power. That we will understand our power supersedes the power we are told others have over us and that we will no longer allow the system to dictate what we do. 

I trust my ability to fly rather than the branch to merely support me.  I trust that I can weather the storm and navigate anything that comes my way.  I trust that I am guided to do just that and that I will understand the signs with the utmost clarity.  I trust that I will take the actions that feel right even if they don’t make sense at the time.  I will remember that I am stronger than I think and I have survived everything else up until now.  I trust the support I need will be there whenever I feel down or weak as long as I ask for it.  I trust that even if I feel weak, I will be able to continue and no one will judge me.  The people that matter will be there for me.  And even if I feel weak, I can still be a backbone for others.  The right people support me no matter what I’m going through—they guide me when I’m being wrong and help me keep level in what I need to do and not let emotions control or dictate my actions. 

I believe my values and beliefs will set the tone for what I need to do.  I believe that being honest, authentic, vulnerable, real, direct, and aware will take me farther than trying to tailor myself to every single situation and being the person everyone wants me to be. There is only one of me and I am not meant to be anyone other than me.  I will no longer lose myself in trying to appeal to others and I will do what feels right for me even if it’s uncomfortable at first.  I know right and wrong and I know that I can trust my instincts.  I also know that I don’t need to keep my armor up all the time and that I can take the time to get to know someone before deciding they aren’t right for me but I will absolutely follow my gut.  I will lean more on faith so I am always connected to my inner guidance and intuition. 

I will love with all of my heart, every day—especially those closest to me.  I do not take for granted that the time we have is short—as they say the days are long but the years are short.  I am not going to continue to blink and find another year gone.  This moment is special, this time is special and I will focus on the priority in the moment rather than the fear of what someone thinks or that I should be doing what someone else thinks.  To love is a gift, and we have all been hurt, but I will dive into the depths of whatever kind of love it may be and I will be grateful to feel it, even if there are days it drags me under, even if I need to force myself to put a toe in again.  I’d rather feel it all than be indifferent to my life.  This isn’t a game and I don’t want to be numb because of the hurt or the perceived hurt.  I want to experience it all, trusting it will all be ok.  I want to love who I am with all of my heart as well, taking in every precious moment and exploring the possibilities of my creativity, of what I feel.  I am enough.

Move forward in power, friends.  Have hope and strength and joy, and revel in this miraculous time we have here.  Be present, be hopeful, be honest.  This year is what we make it so believe in where we are at and where we are going and we will always be guided.  Happy New Year.