I want to continue briefly on yesterday’s discussion on our purpose.  Driving home from the Ren Faire today I had a weird feeling about how weird this world is in general.  How little point there is to any of it.  We were with this massive group of people all walking around this fake town from another time, some dressed up to the nth degree in high heat.  Why do we do this?  And that made me question why we do anything we do. Why do we work like we do?  Why do we choose the work we do?  Why do we modify our behavior around other people?  Why do we form the relationships we do?  Why do we believe we need to have our lives a certain way?  Why do we think we need to have achieved certain things by a certain time?  It’s so arbitrary, we can do anything, yet we choose to repeat patterns of those before us and what we have learned ourselves.  Perhaps it’s a safety thing because it always feels best to repeat what we know…But we have to start questioning what we are doing, how we feel about it, what the point is.  I feel that is a natural part of our existence here.

We start to evaluate what gives us love, peace, hope, drive…all of the things that seem to excite us.  We search for what makes us happy and seek to unite and alchemize all of our intricacies into one loving vibration.  We use our wisdom and make the transition to move all those parts into one so we become the master of something unique in our lives.  I’m not saying this to be morbid, but the truth is we are all going to die and we are all on this weird ride together, choosing to spend our energy in a certain way—when the truth is we can spend that energy any way we want.  Perhaps the existential moment I was having is more this: we don’t have to do anything that we are told to do, we don’t have to do anything the same way as anyone else.  It’s a risk, but in the end, it literally doesn’t matter.  We choose how we spend our time and energy.  We can choose again.  If there is no point and we all end up the same way, why waste any time stressing over what we do now.  I never spent enough time finding what made me truly happy—and that is the key to finding our way in this world.  Follow the desires, what feels good, and work on making it our own.  That’s where we find the answers we need. We don’t need the why-we need the resonance of what feels right.  That is our purpose.