“The portal to every next level is through the parts of yourself that you avoid,” via awakened soul.  I don’t know if it’s ego that clings to this idea that we need to be perfect or to be perceived a certain way in order to survive.  There was a point when we needed to present ourselves a certain way to survive: if we didn’t appear ferocious or like we knew what we were doing, then we would certainly die.  But even though we don’t have to go through that now, we still have a tendency to worry what others think and how they see us so we put down and hide parts of us that we feel will get us ostracized or ridiculed or shunned on some level.  In hiding those parts of us, we avoid the essence of how we are meant to feel.  We avoid the lessons we need to grow into who we are meant to be.  I know I have fear around trying new things because I like to know what to anticipate and I struggle to let go of my controlling tendencies.  But in controlling or trying to control all the outcomes, I suppressed what I needed to learn to get through them.  It was a lot of energy trying to prevent the event from happening whereas if I had let it happen I would have learned what I needed to and moved on.

The parts of ourselves that we fear or say we don’t like are there to teach us.  They are a part of us for a reason.  We wouldn’t have it in us if we weren’t meant to have it and to learn/know how to use it.  I think as we’ve become more comfortable with the way we are told to do things or that we are told things need to be a certain way, it feels more and more necessary to hide those facets of who we are. But we can’t hide those pieces of us if we want to be genuine.  And we can’t fulfill our purpose in alignment and in the right frequency if we hide the truth of who we are.  if we are going to develop we need to face the challenges that will inevitably show up.  That means facing the parts of us that we want to hide, that we were trained to hide, that we feel we need to hide.  When we face those pieces of ourselves and we learn to love and accept them, we become a new version of who we are.  We are at peace with who we are.  We can only love ourselves as much as we love ourselves and we can only forgive if we forgive ourselves.  Life is a mirror so we need to accept and honor who we are so we can do the same for others. 

We are all human and we will all make mistakes.  We will all do things we aren’t proud of.  We all need to feel what we need to feel, we have to face what we think we want to become in order to become something else.  Accept ourselves honestly and wholly and face it directly.  Often times if we face the fear directly we find that it isn’t nearly as scary as we think it is, and it saves time and energy.  They say that what we want is on the other side of our fear.  I know with 100% certainty that facing fear isn’t easy and that it isn’t always clear why we have to have certain experiences or that the lesson isn’t always there either (or at least not immediately evident).  But the more we accept ourselves and learn about ourselves the more we are able to be honest with ourselves—ad we do that through being direct.  We need to be direct with ourselves and do so gently, knowing that we are trying to grow.  To give ourselves room to grow.  To give others room to grow.  So don’t be afraid to directly face who we are, to face those fears, and to release the parts we try to dampen.  The world only gets brighter by allowing the light to shine and that light starts from within.  They say if we face the light the shadow always falls behind us.  So.  Don’t be afraid of what we will find.  Instead use what we find to continue to light the way for ourselves and others.  Unveil who we are and enjoy every part of the journey.