Today I am grateful timing.  I’ve never held in in that I have a difficult relationship with time.  I always feared that time was running out somehow, that I would never have enough.  But I see how in the rush to have more time and fit more in, we deplete the energy we have and we ultimately expending more time than we would have had we just done the thing.  This isn’t about control—thinking things need to be done in a certain way at a certain time is a human control thing, wanting it to go our way.  When we simply align and do, the universe reveals over and over again how easy things can be.  Our relationship with time doesn’t need to be anything other than what it is: living in the moment.  When we live aligned with who we are meant to be, we see that moment extends infinitely.  We can do a lot with infinity as long as we embrace the power of being with joy, peace, and gratitude.  I am grateful to let go and allow.

Today I am grateful for bravery.  I’m working on a large project and I’ve hit a patch where I have decisions to make.  This project is about me and my work, fulfilling my purpose but it involved digging in the trenches of some truly difficult moments in my life, not just my own but the people closest to me.  I think I have some underlying fears about how this will shift people’s perceptions of me.  I know I have fears about how it will shift my relationships.  I also know that for my purposes, I need to share these stories.  I’ve gotten to the point of simply breaking them out and writing them down.  The truth is they happened.  I can’t change that and they had a profound impact on my life and this work is about how those moments change us.  It wouldn’t be my story without sharing all of it.  I’m proud of myself for being able to at least take the first step.

Today I am grateful for guidance.  I wouldn’t have taken the steps forward on sharing that story (albeit in private for now) had I not had a dream.  All of my grandparents are gone and I haven’t had a dream about them in some time.  The other day as I worked through deciding how to move forward with my work, I realized that it was sitting on me.  The energy was heavy and I couldn’t do more in that moment.  That night, I dreamt of 3 of my 4 grandparents.  Grandparents are a symbol of protection.  In this dream we ended up in some sort of basement/warehouse where things were leaking.  I took it to mean that it’s safe to go into the depths, things are leaky anyway.  Maybe getting to the full truth will shift things in a better way.  I will write more about that particular experience this week.

Today I am grateful for joy.  I am proud of myself for shifting and recognizing how much joy there is in the world.  This is a major part of my work regardless, so transitioning to feeling it on the regular is amazing.  It really can be as simple as a mindset shift.  I will be the broken record: I know simple isn’t easy.  But what we focus on is what we attract in our lives and that is 100% truth.  When we look for something we will find it.  So choose to look for joy.  Find it in the smallest of moments because life is made up of that recurring series of small moments.  They go fast.  I am joyful in finding moments to connect with now and appreciate what is.  I am joyful to embrace and bask in love.  I am joyful to take care of myself and understand how good it feels to be honored at the deepest level.  I am joyful to trust myself to follow this path.  I am joyful for everything that has come into my life.  I am joyful for all that is in my life.  I am joyful and open to all that is coming into my life. 

Today I am grateful to embrace who I am.  Part of the joy I feel is from discarding what doesn’t work for me.  I was afraid to do it for a long time because I didn’t know how to survive in the in-between: needing parts of the life I was living all while equally needing the parts that were trying to come in.  I’ve been dealing with an intense bout of bronchitis.  I have honestly felt fine for the most part, but it was lingering.  By the time the second week rolled around, I was at the doctors a second time for a new medicine regimen.  I started to struggle and I knew I needed to take some time off to heal.  Even though I felt mentally fine and even physically sound (except the breathing), I was still not right.  So I took the time.  I found so much of who I am.  The work I did flowed in a way I haven’t felt in a long time.  I was able to achieve so much I wanted to with what felt like no effort.  I cleaned and organized my office—it feels even more magical to me now.  I cleaned and organized my living room and the kitchen.  I feel so much more settled.  And I still had an immense amount of time to write, take short walks, do the laundry. There was not one moment that I wasn’t aligned and happy.  More will come on this as well.

Wishing everyone a wonderful week ahead.