Trust the process.  Take care of ourselves and trust the process.  This thought literally popped into my head after a night of anxiety about some decisions I made.  Ironically, I made those decisions with the utmost clarity and intention, knowing the purpose was different, but after a few days, the old thoughts and fears crept into my head.  After that night with the old messages, I woke up with some of the fear thoughts still spinning, but this popped in after the fog cleared.  Sometimes it doesn’t look like what we want is coming or it looks like the mountain is significantly larger than we thought.  That doesn’t mean we need to stop.  Sure, there are times we may need to rest, but we don’t need to stop.  In fact, those are the moments where, once we’ve established our resolve, that it’s key to push forward.  We have this idea of how things will look but we don’t always see the details of the journey to get there.  Sometimes we just have to keep the course and do what we were doing. 

This is another reminder on focus.  I could have chosen to stay with the fear and immediately reverted to my old ways, figuring out how to get out of what I did, feeling sorry for myself for repeating these patterns.  Instead, I recognized that I keep coming back to this place for a reason, this pattern keeps happening for a reason.  I’m meant to follow through on it, not run away from it.  I’m meant to learn from this and share this message with people.  I’ve come to the conclusion that I wouldn’t have continually been brought back here if there wasn’t some lesson I needed to learn.  I believe that lesson is follow through and having the courage to keep going.  This is part of the process and there is a point when you have to let go of the old in order to let the new in.  That means doing something different in the course of a pattern.

I truly don’t know where that voice came from that told me to trust the process and take care of myself.  But I’m glad it happened because it was the first time that I heard something that encouraging rather then something telling me it was time to give up and retreat to safety.  I know I’ve looked for comfort and safety most of my life, but this is about something bigger.  This is about creating something lasting for other people as well—this is about ensuring their safety in the foundation of who they are as much as in myself.  Going back to what I’ve always done will not get me there—and it won’t work for anyone else either.  We talked about how it isn’t the fear of the unknown, rather it’s the fear of letting go of the known.  The unknown eventually becomes known so it isn’t a matter of not wanting to move forward, it’s about losing the feeling we had about something before.  If we learn to trust and have faith and focus on the progress forward, we eventually get to that state again.  We are expansive beings so the goal isn’t to sit in one spot and hope things come our way.  We are meant to create that space and that is a process.  Being anxious over what that looks like won’t help get there.  But believing in who we are and knowing we will get there through love and care is enough.  Keep moving forward even when it’s scary.  The limit does not exist so push beyond it and let the new come rushing in.