Today I am grateful for inspiration.  There are moments when I think I have it all figured out.  Moments that I think I have it all under control and that I know exactly what to do next.  There are moments when I think I can do it all on my own, that I’m responsible for everything and that I will drive myself to do whatever I need to do next.  Not only have I learned that it’s unhealthy and not true to know everything about everything, it’s impossible—living that way is impossible.  There comes a point when I simply don’t have the energy to continue.  This is why we all need support.  We need those reminders, those people to push us past where we are stuck and to keep us going.  Sometimes we need people to remind us of our why because we’ve wound up on a track rather than moving forward.  My team is at their conference this weekend and I’ve been able to catch snippets of it—and it has been a great reminder to keep going, more than what I’ve been doing on my own.  The magic is on the other side of fear, create the reason to move.

Today I am grateful for decisions.  I’ve been frustrated with the lack of momentum in certain areas of my life for a while now.  I fell into victim mode, mainly because I couldn’t understand why things weren’t coming together.  Then I realized this is the essential pattern that I need to break.  I need to stop feeling sorry for myself and so frustrated when things don’t go how I anticipate they should and I need to learn to consistently adjust.  Minor inconveniences or even major setbacks don’t necessarily mean things aren’t meant to be—they may simply mean they aren’t meant to be in the present moment or that we have to approach it from a different angle.  Once we decide on that mindset, new opportunities are more apparent.  So much of what we have to do to gain clarity and momentum is to keep going.  I’ve stopped so close to the finish line many times and I’ve regretted it.  Don’t give up—keep moving.

Today I am grateful for support.  I had an interaction with my mom on Friday that left me feeling frustrated, drained, sad, and a little angry.  I’m also struggling with reconciling those feelings because she’s done these things that warrant those emotions all while helping in her own way.  I’ve felt fairly alone lately because my husband and I have a lot going on and he’s been working different hours than me so we haven’t been able to connect—in fact us losing touch with each other was one of my worries recently.  It’s been isolating.  Regardless, as I drove home after this interaction, all of the emotion hit me.  When I got home, my husband hugged me close and even rubbed my back for a while and the tears came fast.  It was exactly what I needed.  He understood I needed that understanding and affirmation of where I’m at right now and he gave it to me.  Sometimes that support comes when we least expect it and that is exactly when we need it—or at least I did.  I’m grateful for it.

Today I am grateful for action.  As frustrating as it can be, sometimes life gets us to a low point so we have no other option but to move a certain way—or to finally move at all in some cases.  For me, I’ve been working in circles for quite some time.  Always moving, always pushing the same pieces around the board and that type of movement can feel productive in the moment, but eventually we see we are in the same spot.  I’ve been in such a position lately, where it feels like the options are narrowing in regards to the things I actually want to do—so if I want to do them then I only have one way to go.  We can take action but we also must commit to that action.  Things don’t always turn out on the first or even the hundredth try, but we need to pivot each time and adapt.  It can feel like life is closing in when certain options are no longer available, but sometimes that is the key to finding what we need.  That’s when we move on it.

Today I am grateful for vision.  When we have a vision on how we want things to be, we need to act accordingly.  So applying action (as mentioned above) to that vision will ensure results.  Even if they aren’t the results we anticipated, those results show us what we need to do next.  When that vision is tied to our purpose, even better.  The clearer we see things the easier it is to make decisions and move in the direction we intend.  Sometimes the path toward the vision doesn’t look how we thought it would and that’s when it’s easiest to get derailed and think it means we aren’t meant to go in that direction.  I know that’s when I have given up numerous times.  I understand now that the vision I had wasn’t strong enough—because when we are really clear, we know how to pivot and keep things on the tracks even if it’s a detour.  When we are unclear, we tend to stop and jump to a new track altogether.  Results come from consistent action toward a goal, not from leaping from one thing to another.  I’m grateful for vision to keep me going and to remind me to move in spite of the fear. 

Wishing everyone a wonderful week ahead.