How would it feel if you 100% trusted everything?  The safety, the security in the knowing that all is truly well.  Nothing could go wrong.  Nothing would disturb the peace.  Because we would understand that even the things that disturb us are meant to help us—so there is no need to be upset, no need to get worked up, no need to feel anger about things going a certain way.  It is the complete relinquishing of control and trusting/accepting that this is for the best.  That we can change our direction and that too will be for the best.  That every choice we make is what’s meant to happen.  It is the complete acceptance of the moment.  And in that acceptance we find trust.  When I think about the feeling that comes with trust, I think of safety.  I know that is one of the things I sought most in the world—being safe and secure.  I dealt with a lot of loss as a child—loss of important people in my life, siblings older than me going away to school and moving out, almost losing my siblings and my father several times.  I always wanted to make sure everyone was ok and accounted for.

I spent so much time trying to keep everything around me so I’d have some sort of security blanket that I didn’t realize how time was moving.  I tried to freeze moments because I wanted to remember how I felt—and I wanted to recapture that feeling.  I didn’t have an extremely large or stable friend group growing up and I felt ostracized most of the time so I leaned on the guidance of adults around me and I certainly became clingier than I needed to be.  I never learned to trust and learning that skill as an adult isn’t easy.  We realize that we first have to trust ourselves before we trust others and if we haven’t learned to believe in our own foundation or our ability to fly then we struggle to trust ourselves.  It’s far easier to repeat the patterns we know because we KNOW those.  We aren’t sure if we can trust ourselves.  It takes time and it takes stepping into things we aren’t certain of so we can learn to find our way back.    

As far as that feeling of trust and knowing we can find our way back to ourselves by ourselves, I imagine trust feels like a combination of confidence and like being carried.  It’s that feeling that we can handle anything and we are being held/supported at the same time.  What an amazing feeling.  I imagine that there is no worry and no fear, and that we see things with clarity and sharp focus.  I imagine that there is a new level of presence when we trust that everything around us is exactly as we need it to be because there is no trying to change what IS.  The goal isn’t about changing ourselves, it’s about loving who we are in that moment.  What a gift!!  Talk about the ultimate acceptance of who we are and understanding how connected we are to the universe and ultimately our purpose.  This is why trust is so important: we learn to navigate by our north star and to continue even when it’s hard—and any uncertainty becomes a learning opportunity.  So when we trust everything, we know we are guided.  We know we are safe and that safety allows us to be fully who we are.  How cool is that?