I’ve spent the last week doing exactly what I need to do for me.  After hearing Betty Reid Soskin’s story, I realized that we can begin again and do what we need to do at any time.  Radical honesty with ourselves is what gets us where we are going.  Stop betraying our course by doing what we think we’re supposed to do.  I know every day when I wake up that I want to be working on my things—yet I stop and get ready for work.  Yes, there is a reason behind that (I like to eat and I like having a roof over my head), but what happens if I spent a little more time working on the things I wanted so I could do better for myself and my family?  What happens if I spent more time creating the life I wanted instead of dreaming about it?  Soon the dream becomes the reality and that new reality supports us.  Start over as many times as needed.  Start over.  IF it isn’t working, go where it is, create where it is.  The only person impacted or suffering if you aren’t willing to give up what isn’t working is you.  Be willing to recognize it isn’t working and start building what you need to as many times as necessary.

Life isn’t linear.  We think we choose these experiences and that is it, that we have one story to tell.  In reality, we become different people over and over again, as often as we need to.  We aren’t meant to paint ourselves into the corner so to speak by choosing what we are supposed to be come at 18 (or earlier) and defining the rest of our actions by the choice we made as a child.  Life is a web, and it’s made up of what we choose to do and be in any given moment.  The key is follow through.  It’s allowing ourselves to become who we need to be in order to become who we need to be so to speak.  Life becomes what we make it and life responds best when we live.  The living is in the creativity, the creation of who we are in any given moment.  There isn’t an ending because we put together the pieces of who we are over and over again until the picture becomes something tangible.  We can change the picture by changing the focus.  The simple version/lesson in this is don’t fear starting over.  Don’t fear what the moment tells us.  Learn to take the leap.  It’s there for a reason, and so many people are glad they did.  Their wings came out and they found who they are.  Life isn’t one thing, it was never meant to be.  It’s not always tidy and there isn’t always the answer we want or expect, but there are gifts in the unexpected.  Life comes in the bend and flex of the strokes we make.  It’s never one stroke.  Everything combined makes the picture.