Today I am grateful for presence.  I’ve become more comfortable in my own skin lately, more comfortable in my own home, more comfortable in recognizing what I need.  I still feel some of my old training where if things don’t follow the traditional path I get a little uncomfortable.  I still even have moments where I’m trying to figure out if I would ever fit in.  But the more I realize that those things, that standard may not be for me, the easier it is to let go.  Lean toward what feels right.  The more I fill my life with what feels right to me, the better I feel.  The less afraid I am.  The more sure I am of what to do next.  I’m grateful to be where I am and to feel that love.

Today I am grateful to realize where I need to surrender.  I spent so much time fighting where I was that I failed to see where I was going at times.  As soon as I paused long enough to truly accept both the good and bad of the current state, things started to align a bit better.  Things seemed to fit easier.  Pieces fell into place.  As soon as I let go, answers literally came out of nowhere.  I see possibilities because the possibilities showed up.  I let go of when and continued to follow the course of taking my steps one at a time.  That’s all I needed to do.  One step at a time. 

Today I am grateful for planning.  I’m getting back to some roots in planning an event for my best friend.  The universe works in amazing ways and I just so happened to find these materials in the last place I expected.  It was like the universe aligned and wanted me to have these things to make for her—it was magic.  They were all things I thought I wanted to put together for her and, bam!  It was definitely an ask and receive moment. 

Today I am grateful for organizing.  I mentioned above that I’m starting to feel more comfortable in my home.  When we moved here, I had a combination of excitement, nervousness, fear, and maybe even a little dread.  There was a part of me that struggled to believe that we were here.  I’ve been taking the time to slowly put down more roots, to make decisions about how I want things to look, how I want my house to feel.  I’ve been finding the pieces of me that I want to share and show.  Some people want things a certain way because they are trying to reflect something about status or their lifestyle.  I just found this medium to use to find me.  We were gifted some furniture and I’ve been putting my things on how I like them.  I’ve been going through things and purging.  These are things people normally do and I denied myself that for a long time.  It feels like home.

Today I am grateful for love.  As communal creatures we all look for socialization, connection, and love.  It’s important for our health and well-being, and it’s important to establish those feelings and make sure that connection remains, especially in long-term relationships.  My husband and I were speaking about where we are now and I reminded him of something that had happened several years back—nothing we couldn’t get past, just something that made a circumstance difficult.  It was relevant to the conversation, we weren’t digging for negativity.  Without any provocation, he apologized.  I NEVER expected that, not for a second.  There are certain things I’ve held, real traumas from our past that I wasn’t sure he understood the full impact of.  In that moment, I knew he knew.  And I knew he meant what he said about being sorry—and he loves me.  It wasn’t so much the validation, it was the understanding. That for me is love. 

Today I am grateful for momentum.  Things are unpredictable—that’s nature and the way of life.  It’s even the way of the universe.  But if it all plays out for a reason, then this is the season of things moving forward.  I’m ready.  I’ve been waiting for answers for a long time and I’ve been getting consistent messaging that things were in the works for even longer.  In the last week, however, things truly started pushing forward.  I feel what is no longer a good fit more strongly than ever, there are things I am not able to motivate myself to do any longer.  That feeling isn’t healthy or productive.  So on the heels of that, the fact that there is movement and answers are coming is highly appreciated.  It feels good, it feels right, and I trust all will turn out as it’s meant to.  I’m grateful, I feel protected, and I await the outcome that is meant to be. 

Wishing everyone a wonderful week ahead.