Today I am grateful for a clear space.  I spent a ton of time organizing and cleaning yesterday.  I completely finished organizing my bathroom and what a difference.  It coincided with a card I had received about cleaning and clearing the space for a new beginning.  For taking care of myself.  The bathroom never really bothered me—I mean, I didn’t like certain areas that always seem to be dirty—but seeing the difference with a clutter free, cleared space made all the difference.  A few simple changes and it feels like an entirely new space.  I started wandering through the rest of the house to do the same thing in other spaces and my limits kicked in.  I didn’t want to weekend warrior creating a more harmonious area, but I am grateful that I started working on getting things together.

Today I am grateful for signs.  I have a story I will share in the coming weeks about the cycles of life.  I’ve struggled with trust and faith lately, to the point of nearly denouncing any faith I had, but there is always something that keeps me coming back.  There have been signs about things that nothing other than divine action, divine connection, fate, whatever you want to call it could have been responsible for.  There are things that are more than coincidence that go beyond explanation and I have to accept that there is some purpose, even amidst confusion, anger, and frustration.  There is purpose that we may not see in the moment, especially when we are hurt.  But I’m grateful that the signs keep coming—and I’m trying to be patient while waiting for the lesson, the reason.

Today I am grateful for reclamation.  I am so grateful for the infinite patience of the universe because I’ve been back and forth on my identity for years.  I thought I was so firm in my sense of self only to realize that I have no clue, that I’m just repeating patterns.  I started doing the work diligently and have seen that there is always more.  I treated so much of my life like a destination, a check-list of things to do, expecting moments to define me.  Life is a journey and if we spend it doing the same things repeatedly, that is a life unlived.  When we step into who we are, when we are given the opportunity to really find who we are, then we reclaim a pert of ourselves.  I’m so grateful to be in that stage, to reclaim who I am.

Today I am grateful for presence.  We didn’t have much to do today aside from continuing to clean and organize the house.  So we took some time to sleep, to eat, to play.  I watched some car videos with my husband, I played video games with my son, and I spent some time doing the spiritual work with my son.  Each moment only required my attention, my being there.  It wasn’t about doing anything, it was about being in the moment and enjoying the task.  We need more moments like that, more time spent right where we are instead of worrying about where we have to go or what to do next.  Just breathe into where we are.

Today I am grateful for joy and new experiences.  My husband and I agreed this was going to be a year of experiences over spending more money on more things.  He surprised us today by taking us to a new coffee house.  I was able to try boba for the first time, my son was able to try a smoothie for the first time all for under $20.  We were able to do something new.  When we got home, my husband worked on his car for a bit and my son and I had a dance session on the driveway.  We also spent time reading today and playing video games.  I am not a gamer by any means but we’ve found a game that I can play and my son is thrilled.  I love sharing the experiences together and it is something new for me.  It definitely opens up new perspectives on life and creates new opportunities for bonding as well as creativity.  All from opening up to joy and allowing things to be as they are.

Today I am grateful for boundaries.  As I’ve shared numerous times, boundaries are an issue for me.  It’s one I am well aware of but seem to blast right past whenever they come up, or when it’s time for me to enforce them.  Today I spoke with I team member whom I have a lot of respect for but I haven’t always set clear boundaries with her.  One of the things I’ve been working on is realizing that I’ve said yes to too many things.  Even if they were wonderful opportunities, it was still an overcommitment and I realize that I can no longer put my priorities on the back burner for someone else’s gain.  I need to have enough time to follow through on what I commit to.  Today I exercised a boundary about time, stating that I wasn’t ready for the overwhelm of the team and she respected it.  It’s going to take practice but it takes time.

Wishing everyone a wonderful week ahead.