There is still time for you to be all that you want to be. I’ve lived with a really messed up notion of time for most of my life. I’ve shared those stories here. Over the last month we’ve had quite a bit of upheaval between family disputes, health issues, care issues, timing, and work. The reality is we’ve come face to face with mortality and the time we have left and recognizing that we need to get on track with what is calling to us. The things we want to do will not do themselves and they will not magically appear in our lives. We have to get in line with what we are looking for, we have to be who we are meant to be before it is too late.
I’ve put so much pressure on myself over the last few weeks to be me. To find me. To do all the things because of the self-imposed turmoil of one person’s opinion. I’ve been scrambled and I’ve wasted a month of my life running circles around how to resolve this image I’ve created in my head of what I need to do to fix other people’s opinions. I’m done with that. Sometimes when we are running and have no end in sight, the best thing we can do is simply stop. I’m hitting the brakes. I’m looking at what matters to me and the timing of my life. Yes, we are dealing with very real issues and concerns, but that doesn’t mean my life is over. My time is still beginning. Yes, that does mean what I’ve known, a way of life IS over. But there is so much more to write.
I’m feeling that call as well. I’m tired of talking about these changes—they’re beautiful and I’ve taken steps. But it’s time to let go of everything else. It’s time to get quiet enough to hear what I need to do in order to fulfill my goals. I let the thought of someone shitting on my dream stop me before I even go for it. How messed up is that? We are meant to live this life. We have gifts we are meant to express and share and if we hold back for fear of what we think of someone else’s potential opinion, we are depriving our calling an dour nature as well as what we are meant to bring to the world. There is time. There is purpose. It is now.