Today I am grateful to go against my instincts. I’ve had a major distrust of myself and my ability to transition into something on my own. I was always scared to take the chance on something tangible for myself because I didn’t know if I could maintain it. Taking that chance though, GIVES you the motivation to maintain it. It makes it real and once you get your teeth into something that good for you, it makes you want more. It opens up the possibilities you didn’t see there and the creativity FLOWS. Highly recommend!
Today I am grateful to learn a middle ground I hadn’t considered before. I have always been pretty passionate and firm in my beliefs. I never looked at how they polarized—I just assumed I was right on most of them because I wanted the best for everyone. I didn’t consider the steps it would take to find that middle ground I always talked about. The reality is, in order to change anything, you have to become a part of it first. I’m not saying fully engulfed, but I’m saying you need to be immersed enough to know how it got that way in the first place. When you get to that place, you can make changes.
Today I am grateful for my body. Last night in particular was a rough night health wise. My stomach was not happy and I didn’t sleep well. But I managed it and I allowed myself to get the rest I could. My son and my animals followed me out on the couch, letting me know I wasn’t alone. I allowed it and I woke up feeling much better. It was a reminder to take care of myself better and that some of the indulgences I allow myself aren’t meant for me any more. And that is fine. When it comes to moving forward in life, sometimes discipline is key.
Today I am grateful for learning. I’m reading new books and looking at different means to develop who I am and how I look at life. I’m also learning how to maneuver through life in ways that I hadn’t considered before. I mentioned above about having to be in the game in order to change it and I see the importance of that now more than ever. I whole heartedly believe that we can change and I know with everything in me that we need to. However, I idealistically believed that the masses would simply take over. That is partially true but it is more of a matter of more people getting skin in the game and shifting direction rather than brute force. The same is said for changing ourselves.
Today I am grateful for living. The past few days off have shown me the possibilities of what I’m really looking for. I’ve been craving freedom and more resources, but I see now what it means to do that. It means creating space to do that and learning how to make it possible. Part of that is living in the moment. Accepting what is and going with it. That is living in a nutshell. Life is a giant game on so many levels and we are meant to play with the powers that be to create what we are looking for. Being happy to have the opportunity speaks volumes about what else comes my way.
Today I am grateful for clearing. For clearing space, physically and mentally to be who I am meant to be. Clearing what is around me allows the space clear what is within me as well. Taking the time to put away clothes, to clean the kitchen, to finish a book all clears mental space as well. It allows for clarity in general, sometimes in ways you don’t know you need. Today also happened to have a cleansing rain so it felt extra symbolic as I worked my way through extra clutter. The answers we need come when we make the way.
Wishing everyone a wonderful week ahead.