Those Stirrings Mean Something

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“You feel unsettled because you know you are meant for more,” via dailyspiritflow.  A delicious follow up to hearing the whispers and seeing signs around us.  When I slowed down and tried to hear what all of my confusion and lethargy and anger was trying to tell me, the phrases that continually popped into my head were, “You’ve got to be doing more of what you love” and, “You’ve got to take better care of yourself” and, “You’re stronger than you think.”  I’ve been allowing myself to get roped into some old patterns of behavior that no longer serve me and that are no longer indicative of who I am.  The words my husband said about me a few weeks ago pushed me over the edge in a new way and I’ve felt helpless because SO many things seem to be going to the wayside no matter how hard I try.

I don’t know about you, but when I deal with anxiety, sometimes I get these weird surges of absolute confidence followed by absolute insecurity.  It’s like the universe is testing how much I really believe in myself or how much I really want something.  It’s a sign that the confidence I think I feel isn’t quite as solid as I would like it to be, but it’s also a sign of where I need to go.  We are meant to fulfill our purposes and when we are walking around like zombies, repeating the same thing day after day, our souls begin to cry and send us messages.  Maybe those repeated failures at work in spite of doing exactly what’s right, or constantly being told it’s not the right time, is the message that you’re meant to go where things flow.

I’ve been examining the patterns of the people I attract in my life and I’ve recognized that I don’t fit in with a lot of them.  I know I have a helping nature, but the people I attract are either the martyrs who do it all to prove how much they do, or the victims who don’t want to do anything.  I’m neither of those things.  I fall in the middle.  I know when there is work to be done but I am not noble enough to do it on my own.  I also believe that if there is a particular goal, our actions need to be aligned toward that.  I was of the mind that it was easier to do everything on my own rather than try to make people do what was right—and that made me a martyr.  So it gets frustrating being surrounded by the people who need to do more to soothe their souls and those who don’t want to do any of the work and I get left holding the stick in either case.  And that is not what I am meant to be.

The anxiety I’ve been feeling as well as the emotions have been guiding me toward the person I need to be.  Life has been putting me in some uncomfortable situations to remind me of what I can get through and to expose more of who I am.  I used to feel like life had some sort of “punishment incentive” where everyone just feels miserable to some degree.  That is so depressing.  And life is what you make of it, so if you want more, then you need to do more.  It isn’t a punishment, it’s a matter of drive and knowing you need to get to the next level.  When the daily routine becomes intolerable, we have to look at what the issue really is.  More often than not, we need to look at the next steps in our lives.

Our souls speak to us and that is how we remember who we are.  While it may not be a conventional voice (see yesterday’s discussion on signs), there are shouts and whispers everywhere.  We know what we want, we feel what we are capable of, and we are trained to push that aside for the “norm.”  We aren’t meant for the norm, my friends.  What the norm was 100 years ago isn’t the norm today so why are we still trying to fit ourselves in the boxes that didn’t work for the era they were designed in?  We know we are meant for more and it isn’t supposed to be the small percentage that succeed and break out—we are all meant for our own forms of greatness.  When things no longer work, even if those were things you wanted at one time, it is ok.  It is a step in your evolution.  It is time to expand and greet the “more” in your life.  Follow what your inner knowing is telling you—it is always spot on.    

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