Today I am grateful for spontaneity. Yesterday we started off the day hitting the ground running. I worked, took care of the animals, drew my cards, we cleaned we had a small breakfast and then we were out and about, picking up a few things, we got some lunch. We got back home and realized we had to go out again. We went to a couple different stores and ended up getting ice cream and going for a long drive. Seeing my kid enjoy a simple cone with so much relish made my day. By the time we got home, it was dusk and my son asked to go fishing so we took a walk to the lake by us and we spent some time fishing. My little boy caught a small blue gill and shouted, “It’s a miracle!” only to be followed up a minute later by a two pound small mouth bass that nearly broke his little pole. The excitement, the simplicity of spending the day together, and the pure joy—THAT is what I’m living for.
Today I am grateful to step into presence. I really struggle to focus for long periods of time because my mind is always going in multiple directions and if I don’t start something when I think about it, I will forget. After lunch yesterday, my son and I were waiting for my husband, just hanging out in the car enjoying the gorgeous weather and I was on my phone. My son looked at me and said, “Mama, I have something to say to you.” Those are the magic words in our house, so I put my phone down and gave him full attention. He said, “When I was born, I loved you. I will always love you.” My heart MELTED on the spot. I grabbed my boy and just held him. It was everything I could do not to cry. I thought of all the times I felt so annoyed as a parent and how that must have made him feel when all he wanted was love. I knew then and there I could never do that again. I never WANT to do that again. My son is super sensitive and incredibly intuitive and I want to be there for every moment he needs me.
Today I am grateful for signs from the universe. Every day I ask for signs. I always try to make sure my actions are aligned with my purpose and I ask for signs to tell me when I’m moving in the right direction. Ever since I’ve shifted my focus and become more serious about my goals, I’ve noticed the signs coming in more consistently. There are days I will get my sign up to 10 times. For years I’ve asked for the same thing as my indicator and there would be times I wouldn’t see it maybe once a week, if at all. Shifting my mindset has opened me up to new possibilities and as I take them, the feeling is absolute joy and peace. The universe responds to that and I am grateful.
Today I am grateful to more comfortably align. My husband and I haven’t seen eye to eye for a long time. We have a lot of similar goals but we don’t always agree on how to achieve them. He is more willing to get into debt than I am. For a long time we both sought instant gratification and we spent a lot of money on things we didn’t need because we wanted to have fun in the moment. I broke that habit a long time ago and I am quite content with what we have and what I’m contributing and building for our future. My husband has taken some time to do the work and find what really makes him happy. Rather than working for instant gratification and regretting it or it having no use, he is now more willing to play the longer game. There are only so many things you can guy and still feel miserable before you realize it’s not a thing you lack, it’s connection. We have done a lot of work to connect with ourselves and get honest about what we need to do to have the life we want. It’s a sense of being on the same page.
Today I am grateful for results. I firmly believe that our lives will always be a work in progress. We are meant to evolve and learn and adapt. But there is a sense of peace and yes, pleasure, that comes when things coalesce. When you’ve wanted something for so long and have put in the effort on something you’ve seen coming together, it feels amazing when it finally works. There is a sense of validation but it’s more than that. There isn’t any pushing. It no longer feels like you’re struggling uphill or grinding against a cog that never quite fit. It just works.
Today I am grateful for my family. I’ve always wanted more time with my family and this weekend demonstrated perfectly exactly why and what I want. We have had an incredibly relaxing weekend yet super productive. The time we spend together is so special. Even if it’s just driving around to see some local sights, being present and loving each other and experiencing growth with each other is the best feeling in the world. Time is something we can never get back. The fact that I can spend it with the people I love is something I will never take for granted.