Today I am grateful for where we are. A few months ago I wasn’t sure how I would make it through the day and now we are preparing to move into our forever home. I lost hope so many times along the way and genuinely thought I wasn’t going to get any father than where I was. I had to make horrible decisions this year, I felt the pain of all of them, and I felt like a caged rat at times. Things turn around when we least expect them to—and grateful isn’t even the right word. It feels surreal and I know my life has changed.
Today I am grateful to break old habits. I know if I want to make a different life I can’t carry the habits of the last 3+ decades with me. I have a strong fear of money—not having enough or running out of it. Regardless of any fact to the contrary, the fear is a low rumble in my mind. Over the last few weeks, I’ve had to let that go. I’ve had to release control of what I thought any transition in my life would look like and take it as it comes. I will admit it feels incredibly liberating—a huge weight lifted as I stop the repetitive thoughts. This still requires a ton of conscious effort because intrusive thoughts don’t fade that easily—and there’s no accounting for when they come. But it feels good to take a step toward the light.
Today I am grateful for love. I have been so blessed with an amazing support system in my life. I am taking the time to make a much more conscious effort toward sharing love at every turn. I used to be afraid of being taken advantage of or of not having my efforts reciprocated—but that isn’t love. Love is a feeling we get to share, yes, but it is about how we feel in sharing that with others. I’ve been given the opportunity to give back to those I love and I have every intention to give back as much as I can.
Today I am grateful for differences. Differences in relationships can be scary. Depending on what they are they can mean the end. Other differences exist merely to show us that there are different ways to accomplish the same goal. Communication is key in every circumstance otherwise the other person can feel blind-sided or like their opinion doesn’t matter. It’s more important how you arrive at a decision together as opposed to who is right. When one of you always feels like you’re right, someone will always feel left out and a relationship needs to be comprised of compromise.
Today I am grateful for recharging and how it looks different for everyone. This is all about getting to know yourself and listening to what your body or mind is telling you. We always have the opportunity to start over, it doesn’t matter what that break looks like. Today we’ve been watching some of our favorite movies, we ran to the store, we set up a truck for our move, we napped, and we snacked. We have a ton of work ahead of us so it was nice to just relax a bit.
Today I am grateful for the opportunity to share. Sharing makes us vulnerable but it is the foundation of genuine connection. It is how we show trust as we express who we are at our core and allow others to decide if they are on the same wavelength. It’s also how we determine if someone is on the same vibration as ourselves—it’s always a two way street. It’s important to view reality as it is, not how we want it to be. The only way we can do that is to share who we are, honestly, openly, and authentically. We develop confidence by expressing our truth over and over again no matter what people think because we learn what is important to us deep down.
Today I am grateful for hope. As the year turns to summer, we are heading into a very different season than what we cocooned into. There are opportunities coming and it feels right to pursue those opportunities now. Approaching the future with hope means knowing that life can always surprise us and that we need to be willing to let go, over and over again. Letting go doesn’t mean giving up—it means accepting and going with it. There have been many moments this year that I’ve wanted to give up and fall back to who I was, but the universe doesn’t have retreat in store for me. Being pushed forward, no matter how uncomfortable, brings us what is meant in our lives.
Wishing everyone a wonderful week ahead.