Today I am grateful for turning a page. I’ve had to make some changes in my life over the last few weeks. New priorities, deeper commitment to the life I am trying to build, affirmation of the choices I have made, and a reconciliation with choices I previously made. It’s a feeling of ease when I know I am doing something that is right. The anxiety creeps in when I am doing something that is out of alignment.
Today I am grateful for putting proof in the pudding so to speak. I had a lot of plans for this weekend and I am proud to say that I was able to execute with ease and grace. I took my time, I was organized, and I even had time to relax. I’m excited for this week because I’ve taken some time off and I really am working on reconnecting with myself and my family.
Today I am grateful for healing. I’ve done a lot of work over the last year with looking deep inside of myself to see where I am the toxic person and to see why that is. I am no longer interested in playing the victim in my life because that suggests I am the passenger. Part of healing is making peace with all parts of myself and taking ownership of those pieces.
Today I am grateful for self-care. In the same vein as healing, I’ve realized that I have a tendency to take care of everything and everyone around me and I let my needs fall to the way-side. I’ve been looking into Ayurveda for a while and I started some small practices this weekend with oils. It felt so good. It felt nourishing and whole.
Today I am grateful for reminders of patience. I messed up on a cookie recipe today—overcooked them and made them too hard. I would have normally freaked out and gotten really angry with myself but I looked for the positive. They still tasted delicious and they looked beautiful! While this may seem a silly example, this is a big step for me. I know I need to cultivate more patience for my life, in my life, so any step is progress for me.
Today I am grateful for my relationship with my husband and son. I listened to a piece on some book recommendations the other day and one of them was one that I had heard about many times before, Chapman’s book on love languages. You can hear the same message a million times, but it may take that right moment for it to click and it clicked for me this time. I haven’t gotten the book yet (I will get it) but I understood that it all comes down to recognizing how the other person understands—not just how they communicate, but how they take information in. It isn’t about them being who I want them to be, it’s about loving each other as we are. Honestly, the same can be said for my relationship with myself as well—loving myself as I am and not expecting myself to be someone else.
Wishing you all a wonderful week ahead!