Today I am grateful for the reminders to take care of my health. I’ve had some physical concerns for the last few months and over this weekend, they have made it to the point where it is no longer a “wait and see” type situation. This is something I need to address. I’ve been afraid to hear what the issue really is but I know that knowing is going to be better than not knowing and doing something to make this better will resolve a lot more than the physical issues. The mental stress of not knowing and guessing will go away. And perhaps the physical issues have been causing the other issues like snapping at people and such an intolerance for minor inconveniences. So I am grateful to handle these things.
Today I am grateful to have accomplished a few of the things I wanted to this weekend. I had taken Friday off but I ended up having to work for a few hours and I haven’t been feeling well for the greater part of two days. I was still able to get some decorating done and play some games with my son. I lost my temper on more than one occasion because he was exceptionally demanding this weekend and I wasn’t anticipating having to work like I did. Then my son broke an ornament from my grandmother who is no longer with us. The mental exhaustion is high and I am struggling to get beyond that because whenever I have to stop I feel like it’s wasting time. But the harder I push, the worse I feel. So I am going to be happy with what I managed to get done and try again.
Today I am grateful to see the sun. We’ve had exceptionally warm weather the last few weeks so we were able to go for walks nearly every day. I got to take the dog out for early morning walks the last two days and it was such a nice way to begin the day.
Today I am grateful to have warm clothes and a comfortable bed to sleep in. I’m not sure if coddling myself is really beneficial at this point but I am so exhausted that I am truly grateful to have a comfortable place to rest my head tonight. I know I just had a long weekend, but I really feel like I need actual rest.
Building off of the last point, today I am grateful to recognize a habit that doesn’t really serve. I’ve been trying to push because I want to get things done (and I’m really driven) but I have been using time that was built in and designed for rest to continue to push through. I have filled that time with more to-do lists and things I want to check off rather than resting. My limits are changing and my mind is craving actual solitude and peace—not making the house look like a Christmas workshop. I mean, yes I wanted to do it, but my mind just isn’t really into it. So I know I need to listen to what my body is telling me—and take care of myself mentally, physically, and spiritually.
Wishing you all a wonderful week!