Today I am grateful for taking care of my family. I’ve been extremely preoccupied lately and I took the time today to pause all of that. I woke up early, I journaled, I did some research, I was able to write for a bit, I took care of the animals, and made breakfast for my family. I spent time meal prepping for the week (part of my Sunday routine) and I do this because the health of my family is important to me. It’s also important that I keep myself healthy so I can continue to be there and provide for my family.
Today I am grateful for every sign that I am in alignment with my purpose. While I was in the kitchen I was listening to Lives and one of the topics was about communication—which is what I had been journaling about when I woke up this morning. The little reminders always keep me going, especially with the distraction around me gets overwhelming.
Today I am grateful to have the ability to create healthy things for my family. One of the Lives I was watching discussed hunger and food disparity and how we discuss these topics. I understood from the language we use that we are perpetuating a circumstance that is within our power to fix. The way we speak to each other about socio-political issues determines how we react to it and how we address the problems. In my world I am fortunate enough to make decisions to keep my family healthy through the foods we eat and the activities we do. Everyone has that right. It is our job to make sure no one has to struggle for it.
Today I am grateful for an abundance of time with family. I don’t think I have been able to shut down for a few weeks now and I am feeling the weight of burn-out. My family is too because we haven’t been doing what we normally do and we’ve been on the move a lot. This weekend we have spent some time detached from the projects around the house and not focusing on what “has to” be done. We even got to have dinner with my parents—which leads to my next one…
Today I am grateful for memories. My mother prepared a roast with some potatoes for dinner. When we walked into my parent’s house it smelled exactly like my grandmother’s house when she used to cook the same meal. It brought me right back to my childhood and all the times we used to spend at my grandmother’s house and it reminded me how long it has been since we’ve had a family meal like that.
Today I am grateful to just be. I have a million things going through my head—and that isn’t an exaggeration. My brain is constantly on overdrive and always picking at things I should be doing. Things I could be doing. And then I get so anxious that I can’t decide on what to actually do. I’ve often thought that in order for a day to be worth anything or to be deemed productive, I had to be working off of a list and checking things off. But these are unique times. I’m not letting myself off the hook for working toward my goals, but I am going to let myself off the hook and understand that I took on a lot with the projects at home, I am working full time, I am a mother and wife, I have a house to take care of, I have parents and siblings that I need to communicate with, and I am working on my business. Sometimes I have to just accept where I’m at and be ok with it. I can’t keep juggling all of that every day and not drop something. And that is ok. I am surviving, my child is loved, my marriage is strong, my parents are healthy and cared for, and no matter how slow, I am making progress. Breathe. It’s ok to just breathe. For today, that is enough.