Today I am grateful for a warm house I can be cozy in. Winter in all of its glory has hit and I am truly grateful to have a home I can curl up in and keep my family safe. I know many others are dealing with issues that prevent them from having that type of security and I do not take it for granted.
Today I am grateful for time away from my 9-5. In all honesty, I enjoy my job. But I know that over the last few weeks I haven’t been able to focus as well as I should have because I have other things on my mind. I’m not sure what happened precisely (except a LARGE amount of journaling and posting) but I feel like I’ve made some progress over the last few days and have been able to let go of some of the pressure I’ve been feeling.
Today I am grateful to begin shedding the emotional weight I’ve been carrying. So much of what I’ve been talking about over the last few days are things that I’ve held onto for many years. I didn’t realize how tight the cage I created was until I began experimenting with putting some of it away and leaving other parts of it behind.
Today I am grateful for silly things and family time. We were able to buy some different textured putties and some games today and it was awesome. I got to play with my son and it honestly relieved some stress. Completely worth the few bucks to bring a smile to my son’s face and to bring out some play for me. There is value in going back to basics sometimes and it doesn’t require a lot to have fun. We definitely can’t be all work and no play. There is so much value in play, creatively and emotionally—and value emotionally FROM being creative.
Today I am grateful for rest. I used to feel like I had to go and go ALL the time. I viewed any down time as a waste of time. Then I started thinking about the work I was doing and started questioning the value in it. What use is all of that activity if it isn’t productive? As I get closer and closer to defining what it is I’m working toward, I feel my body getting more and more relaxed, my mind is getting more and more relaxed. I feel like this is what happens when you get into alignment. You’re better able to go with the flow and look at what is really happening.
Today I am grateful to know where I stand with the people in my life. There are things that I would like in my life and I know that I am not able to get them from certain relationships. I also know that they are not responsible for the things I need so I have to get creative in looking for how I can meet my own needs.
Today I am grateful for reminders about self care and love. I have struggled a lot in the last few weeks with constant questions about things I’ve done wrong and wondering why things aren’t working out how I had hoped. I don’t mean just a little off, I mean in a different universe. I’m trusting that they are working out for the best because I keep drawing the same card from my Super Attractor Deck—The universe is always conspiring to support me, guide me, and lead me compassionately toward the highest good. Sometimes I have to remember that it isn’t about me and that things don’t always work out in my favor because there may be a greater need elsewhere. With all of that being said, I know that it is important to practice patience, and to know that a plan not working out isn’t an indicator of lack of worth. All I can do is breathe and take it one step at a time and remember to take the time to take care of me.