Today I am grateful for decisions. My husband and I have been working really hard at hearing each other out. The last few months have been challenging for him as well and now that we are on the other side of it, we are working out what we want to do next. I am really grateful that we are making the effort to work together because we have both been really fragile and I think we both needed to feel support again. Specifically support from each other and working together has reinforced that for us.
Today I am grateful to look at things with new eyes. I mentioned above that my husband had been having a hard time the last few months as well and I didn’t realize the extent to which things were weighing on him. I’ve always known he struggles with expressing what he is really feeling—he tends to keep most of that inside—but the extremes we faced with my health and losing our child pushed him to the edge as well. Just the fact that he opened up about being upset with the situation gave me pause and let me see his vulnerability. He needed support as well. I am so grateful to see that in him because it was his reality and he was able to share that so I could be present with him and not only in my head.
Today I am grateful for reminders about how precious life is. I’ve had an abundance of these reminders the last few weeks and it is enormous encouragement to continue on my path. We never know what life is going to throw our way so I am grateful to garner confidence to do what works for me.
Today I am grateful for learning. I’ve invested in a lot of books over the last few weeks and I’ve enjoyed every one of them. It feels so good to pick up on things I’ve been interested in and a few books I’ve been waiting to get. I am grateful to do something for myself that expands my mind and my heart and feels good.
Today I am grateful for projects. I feel this surge of energy to move forward with things around the house. The timing is right for the next stage of our lives and to start working toward one of our goals—to get a single family home. We’ve put a lot of things on pause so it feels good to make some progress toward what we want.
Today I am grateful for reminders to stay in our truth. Some issues have come up with a few of our neighbors and it has put us in an uncomfortable position. I see that the person responsible for some of these issues has been struggling for the last year and is probably feeling completely out of control so they are trying to control anything around them. For me it also serves as a reminder that we are not going to let someone bully us because they feel weak and we are on the right path. We’ve outgrown this space and know what we want so we are going to stick with our truth and keep moving forward. It just isn’t worth the fight.
Wishing everyone a wonderful week ahead.