Today I am grateful to listen to my body. I’ve been going out of my mind sitting so much lately and I feel for the first time in a long time that I’m hearing what my body is telling me. I’m struggling to find the middle ground, but I know I can’t sit anymore. My body needs movement, love, and deep care. I managed to put away some laundry and then shower.
Today I’m grateful to listen to my mind. I spent a lot of time reading today. Simply indulging in a book and resting. Not working on anything, not trying to change my mind on any subject. Just getting lost in another world. I also watched some movies to keep my mind off of things. I powered through yesterday and set up a bunch of my work projects for the week so there isn’t so much overwhelm when it comes time to work. The downtime today felt really nice.
Today I am grateful for some peace and quiet. My husband has taken our son out twice today to give me some time to rest and take care of myself. That is an extremely rare gift and I am so glad he did. I adore my son and I have felt so guilty not being able to give him the attention he has needed the last few weeks. So the fact that my husband took him for a little while to give him some real one on one time outside made me really happy because my son got the attention he needed and I was able to relax without feeling guilty.
Today I am grateful for my home. I have neglected it so badly and the place is a disaster, but I have a home where I can rest my head and work my way through all of the craziness. It’s not how I normally keep it and I’m totally uncomfortable, but I don’t look past the fact that I have a space. No matter what it looks like, this space is filled with love and laughter and fun and I want to have more of that in my life. So I’m choosing to be grateful for a space that I can still make my own.
Today I am grateful for the chaos. I hate how I feel now because I am beyond out of my element, but I am choosing to look at this moment with gratitude because it is clearly showing me what I want. It is showing me the life I want to build and it is showing me the steps I need to take to get there. I can no longer indulge in the self-imposed chaos, allowing life to take me in one direction or another. I am able to steer the sail and I am learning that I need to do it more often. This is the first step—embracing the chaos and understanding I can clean up my own mess and go where I want to.
Today I am grateful for support. In the last few weeks, I have not once felt alone and that is an incredible gift I do not take for granted. The people closest to me are aware of what is happening and not one of them has shied away to step up and offer assistance in one way or another. I have had coworkers, colleagues, employees, friends, and family all in my court. Honestly, I don’t even know what I need help with, but knowing all of these people are in my life and willing to help is an immense comfort. I am beyond blessed to have that kind of support system. I am not good at asking for help and I am learning how vital that is. I am grateful to know I have people to reach out to.
Wishing everyone a wonderful week ahead