Today I am grateful to share my perspective on the pandemic. I have shared before and I stand by what I said. But as we are approaching a new year I feel it is more imperative than ever to change the story and understand our role in this. If we want different results than what we have seen over the last year, then it is time to behave differently. And for the record, there will be no knight in shining armor coming to save us with a magic cure-all. We will have to put in the work for our own sake and for the sake of others.
Today I am grateful for learning new perspectives myself. Change is slow and it takes a lot of little steps in order to fully enact change. This weekend has been filled with tremendous anxiety and frustration (for various reasons) and I see that I can no longer fight to keep things the same. I have often spoken of embracing change and going with it, and this has been a huge lesson for me this weekend. Not everything is meant to stay the same. I can drive myself crazy whining about how it “should be” and get absolutely no where. Or I can accept and move forward.
To piggy back on perspective, I am grateful to start tackling big issues with small steps. I mentioned previously that I have a tendency to take on a lot at once and I’ve been fixating on cleaning up the house. Once we decided to take the house off the market, I kept a lot in boxes. Over the last few weeks, I have needed more things from the boxes so the house is getting a little cluttered again. Plus with decorating for Christmas, it felt like my space was closing in. I told myself I would only clean up one or two rooms a day rather than trying to clean the whole house on the weekends. And it helped.
Today I am grateful for snuggles with my son. I really needed some down time with my boy, just to relax. I am so grateful that I was able to have time to do that today. My mother in law and sister in law dropped off gifts for my son today and, even though we were masked and outside, it was so nice to see them. We haven’t seen them since the beginning of the year so it was great to see my son be so excited and happy to see them. There is something so calming seeing my son happy.
Today I am grateful for my health. I have a lot of tests coming up this week and I am truly looking forward to getting some answers about what has been going on with me. I am excited to take action to help me feel like me again. I’ve been taking a lot of steps to make myself healthier and at first this felt like a bump in the road. But now I see it as a reminder to stay the path and to always remember how important our health is.
Today I am grateful for serendipity and the synchronistic messages of the universe. I dreamt about snakes the other night and I looked up the spiritual meaning of the animal. As I was looking at the book, I found an old totem that I had done in 1997. It had been so long since I looked at it that I was mainly shocked that I found it. But as I reread it, I saw that I have snake medicine in my totem. I could not believe it. For me this is an intense period of change and of moving forward with my own projects. There is a lot of letting go and trusting and moving forward even if I can’t see the next step. This is a time of transmutation and change—and the dream and finding that totem were beautiful reminders that it is timely and necessary to change.
I hope everyone has a beautiful week!